20 days

[20misti05]

I've made it 20 days w/o cutting. S'pose that's good...but I don't think I'll last another 20. Or another 24 hours...
See, I'm home alone right now. My parents are visiting my brother, sister-in-law, and niece and they took my little sister with them. I stayed home cuz I was sick.
So, I was thinkin' last night...I could do it...and no one would know. Unless I told them. Heck, I could even go all the way, ya know...if I really wanted...and no one would know until Friday....
But somehow, deep down, I don't want to do any of that. I want to make it another 20 days. I want to look my therapist in the eye and tell her that I did it. That I can do it.
Ya know?

why is everthing so confusing?
maybe i'm just out of my mind
yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
"i'm with you"
by avril lavigne
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I dunno...
Misti​

 

[Cat59]

But somehow, deep down, I don't want to do any of that. I want to make it another 20 days. I want to look my therapist in the eye and tell her that I did it. That I can do it.

Just keep that picture in your head- you telling the therapist you did all those days, you feeling so proud.
Can you ring someone to come round, to help, so that you're not so on your own?


for you!

 

[BlackRain]

yes!! i know that feeling. you CAN do it!! you can go another 20 days without it. i know you can. be strong, girl. ask the Lord to sustain you and help you not to give in.

 

[20misti05]

I'd call someone, but I'm home alone and thus cannot use the phones--and anyone I'd call is long-distance, so I'd have to use the cell...and since my parents are gone until tomorrow...

So that's why I'm up here at the office. I've been on since about 8:30 this morning...is 3:15 now.

Please just pray for me...if it's not askin' too much...
Misti

 

[goldenviolet]

...........

WOOHOO!!!

Praises to God for your determination!

 

[Talons]

Hi... i have the same problem when i'm own. Do you have a hobby or anything that could distract you. Or maybe you could start something new. I'm trying to learn the guitar, but currently i'm trying to save for one, heehee.

Hope this helps
Chow!

 

[Bevlina]

That is one of the most amazing therapies! A hobby! Go for it misti!

 

[beetlequeendiva]

A hobby is defnitely something that will help you - even get various hobbies, it'll take your mind of things. I hope you're doing okay xx

 

[always_hope]

If I were you, I wouldn't think about the next 20 days. Just take each day as it comes and remember that God gives grace for the moment.

~~Hope

 

[Leta]

Misty,
YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!! Visualize that sit down with your therapist and think how good you'll feel!!!!! GO girl!
God Bless,
Saleta

 

[SavedByTheShoes]

try reading psalms 149. i hope that helps. and you ccan make it through the next 20 days with God's help. You cannot do it alone, when ever you want to do it, say a little prayer. its hurts you more to do it than not to

 

[SavedByTheShoes]

in my prayers