Victor I read your post of your life's experience, depression and abuse by family.
First I want to tell you how moved I was by your compassion and love for others you displayed after being abused and terrorized in your life. You may not see it but I learned about a kind and disciplined man in your story. I say this as a 50 yr old husband and father of two sons.
You have been through hell on earth yet here you stand. I don't know you but am proud of how you actually survived what you did. We can only call your survival God's Grace.
I am reminded of the faithful men of the Bible. They lived hard lives. Poor Joseph was so hated by his brothers most wanted to kill him but settled on selling him in slavery. You know the story.
Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ our King wore a crown of thorns for us.
What you have endured and where you stand now I am amazed. My heart goes out to you as well as my prayers.
There is a chaplains section here where you can discuss with a ordained minister what you did in your other post one on one in private if you want. Here's the link and just click on the private area and strike up a conversation with a chaplain. Don't worry we will still be here.
Chaplains Office
God Bless you my brother. I will pray earnestly for you.