- Jul 22, 2017
- 2,979
- 3,077
- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Christian Seeker
- Marital Status
- Single
I am a man that has lust and same-sex attractions. I am starting to realize that I can't pray the gay away, like some people call it. I have to fill my mind with the truth of God's word. Not just the Bible, although that is the most important, but also with other sermons concerning my sin. I realize that I have to memorize scripture and live it out.
I do not understand why homosexuality is sin. But all I know is that if I do it, I will be thrown into hell. And yes, I recognize that lusting is adultery as well. I understand why it is sin to lust after people. It is disrespectful to the people you are lusting after. Think about it. If you had two teenage daughters, and you were given the ability to read people's mind, and you passed a man who had all kinds of dirty thoughts toward your daughters, anybody is going to want to hurt him, even though he may not ever touch your daughters. So, I understand why lust is wrong. It is just disrespectful. And if I am embarrassed to share my thoughts with somebody else, then I probably shouldn't be thinking about what I am thinking. God is always reading my thoughts, and that should be enough to trouble and fear.
Praying the gay away, I am realizing, is not the answer at all. I have to renew my mind by reading his word. But the thing about the Bible is that it doesn't tell us why some sin is sin. It doesn't tell me why two men can't love each other romantically. They can certainly have brotherly love, but romantically they can't because God hates it.
I have had some Christians try to tell why some sin is sin. But I don't care why it is sin. All I know that sin is sin. And if we continue to sin, God throws us into hell. I don't need to understand at all. And I have also have people talk to me about why I have my struggles and they have tried to get to the root my sin struggles. My attitude is now who cares. I don't need to know the root of my same-sex attraction.
Am I wrong for not caring why I choose to not care why God said some sin is sin? Am I wrong for not wanting to know what the root of my sin is?
I do not understand why homosexuality is sin. But all I know is that if I do it, I will be thrown into hell. And yes, I recognize that lusting is adultery as well. I understand why it is sin to lust after people. It is disrespectful to the people you are lusting after. Think about it. If you had two teenage daughters, and you were given the ability to read people's mind, and you passed a man who had all kinds of dirty thoughts toward your daughters, anybody is going to want to hurt him, even though he may not ever touch your daughters. So, I understand why lust is wrong. It is just disrespectful. And if I am embarrassed to share my thoughts with somebody else, then I probably shouldn't be thinking about what I am thinking. God is always reading my thoughts, and that should be enough to trouble and fear.
Praying the gay away, I am realizing, is not the answer at all. I have to renew my mind by reading his word. But the thing about the Bible is that it doesn't tell us why some sin is sin. It doesn't tell me why two men can't love each other romantically. They can certainly have brotherly love, but romantically they can't because God hates it.
I have had some Christians try to tell why some sin is sin. But I don't care why it is sin. All I know that sin is sin. And if we continue to sin, God throws us into hell. I don't need to understand at all. And I have also have people talk to me about why I have my struggles and they have tried to get to the root my sin struggles. My attitude is now who cares. I don't need to know the root of my same-sex attraction.
Am I wrong for not caring why I choose to not care why God said some sin is sin? Am I wrong for not wanting to know what the root of my sin is?