- Feb 22, 2016
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I miss going to church but I just cannot go because noise just really hurts my ears. Even sitting in the cry room with adjustable volume doesn't help because sound coming through speakers really messes with my hearing and because eventually someone will come in with a crying baby (which is what the room is actually for) and I have to leave it until the child is removed.
I wish I could ask my church to come to my house and minister to me but my mother would never agree with that and they already are barely able to minister to those in the nearby care home (they only do services for the elderly there once or twice a month).
I don't get any emotional support from my mother (she has a really hard time with empathy for human beings) and my friends are all too busy or too far away.
I need to go to see a therapist but I can't even afford a sliding scale therapist and there are none in my area that are Christian and affordable.
I just want someone to talk to and be a support to me without any judgement but there is no one I can ask. Not even online. I'm not sure what to do. My life is so miserable as it is. Each day I struggle through my tasks (even more so if I have to go to work) and go home to my room to cry for a few hours and browse the web until I get tired enough to fall asleep. Every time I attempt to just tell someone I'm having a hard time keeping faith or just a hard time in general I get judged or brushed off.
I wish I could ask my church to come to my house and minister to me but my mother would never agree with that and they already are barely able to minister to those in the nearby care home (they only do services for the elderly there once or twice a month).
I don't get any emotional support from my mother (she has a really hard time with empathy for human beings) and my friends are all too busy or too far away.
I need to go to see a therapist but I can't even afford a sliding scale therapist and there are none in my area that are Christian and affordable.
I just want someone to talk to and be a support to me without any judgement but there is no one I can ask. Not even online. I'm not sure what to do. My life is so miserable as it is. Each day I struggle through my tasks (even more so if I have to go to work) and go home to my room to cry for a few hours and browse the web until I get tired enough to fall asleep. Every time I attempt to just tell someone I'm having a hard time keeping faith or just a hard time in general I get judged or brushed off.