what are you feeling right now? (24)

Struggle with the racial and religious problem among the whole world. Generally Chinese can not understand the coexist of different cultures and races of American Mode, including Chinese church.

May God bless you with a kind and smart way.

i have felt very down lately for some reason.

Still feeling well today, apart of Monday this has been a good week for me. Thank the Lord for that.

How is everyone else doing?

Yusuphhai said:

Struggle with the racial and religious problem among the whole world. Generally Chinese can not understand the coexist of different cultures and races of American Mode, including Chinese church.

May God bless you with a kind and smart way.

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Best not try and carry the burdens of the whole world your own are heavy enough brother.

Not sure about your last statement do you mean the Chinese church does not understand the West and our ways?

Co-existing in a multi national-religious culture has to do with respect for each other, but there is a lot of inner divisions. In time of hardship or war multiculturalism will break out into violence like always seems to happen.

I've been busy. It's mid terms already.

I absolutely love my history of media and literacy class. The last few classes (including today), we tackled a very heavy and controversial subject and the majority of the class (300 students or so) did not show up today, likely because they didn't like what was being said/it was too much for them to handle/etc. And it's definitely an on going scandal and argument between what's protected under first amendment and what's not.

I hate my Russian History and Culture class, because my professor cannot take arguments or criticism of some parts of Russian culture or the pointing out the wrong doing's of Putin when she brings him up in lessons. She also lied about Laika surviving in space. He died within a week (supposedly painlessly). So, I'm near failing because for some reason just did not Like Me Expressing No Shock and pointing out more of what Putin has done, in a polite way. She's also so needlessly harsh in her so called critiques. Gave me a failing grade the entire week because:

She could no, apparently, read my actually legible handwriting
I missed a comma, and had one run on sentence. This is a history class, minor mistakes happen. If I was writing, say, an article or a thesis, then yeah, I can understand the over criticalness. But this is a feedback forum.

So needless to say, I am no longer interested in this class, the country nor anything to do with it. When you get someone to lose interest because you're overly critical of what they do and you think you're helping, you failed. You failed big time. Told the counselor I saw this week that I cannot, phsyically, force myself to go into her class room for the weekly meeting because I get so much anxiety, feel so much anger and do not think I can keep myself from absolutely snapping at her.

And this is sad, because I hold my interest in history and other cultures very dear to my heart because I like learning about the world, new things. There's so much it can offer (also this is a required credit for both major and gen ed) but yet.

Jeshu said:

Best not try and carry the burdens of the whole world your own are heavy enough brother.

Not sure about your last statement do you mean the Chinese church does not understand the West and our ways?

Co-existing in a multi national-religious culture has to do with respect for each other, but there is a lot of inner divisions. In time of hardship or war multiculturalism will break out into violence like always seems to happen.

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Dear brother, Comparing with American Mode, Chinese national and international relationship level is quite poor. U.S. has adjusted the policy about minority 、foreigners and believers of different religions. Though things are not perfect, but have improved much more than before. China is still a very poor country which has less tolerance to different opinions and different groups.

Really Jewish problem is a global problem. On the Sunday before last Sunday, the preacher judged All the Judaism believers could not be saved. So on last Sunday I go there with an Arab worship hat(I am an Arabic minority ). They disliked it .I told them Arabic Christian could also wear this kind of hat. Another pastor said I was not a Huihui (Arabic Chinese), He quoted 1Cor9:22 I have become all things to all men so that by all possible means I might save some. Maybe he meant I should be like a Hanchu (the main Chinese nation) . I told him, “if I have become all things to all men, then I am an American. Because American help me establish my theological opinion “

About the complicated religious and national struggle, it is not in our control. But we can treat others kindly and respect the difference. British and Australian native people can live in this hopeful land together peacefully, very good.

Lady Bug said:

I think I am not welcome at a certain part of CF and it doesn't make sense because I can get along with people in this thread but why don't I have chemistry with other people on CF?

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I feel this way too about a certain section too. There's no rule that says you have to use all of CF so I say just use the good parts.

I've been feeling okay.

gerbilwoman said:

I've been feeling okay.

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Me too!

At least we have some things in common - our good days(lol)

our good days, very willingly want to share.

Yusuphhai said:

our good days, very willingly want to share.

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Yes indeed if this was only possible!

Still ever since Jesus found me rock bottom i have done much better than before. Faith in His love can overcome the obstacles i found. Not that hard times don't come but it is so much easier to survive them when we focus on Him.

Be of good courage.

Jeshu said:

Faith in His love can overcome the obstacles i found. Not that hard times don't come but it is so much easier to survive them when we focus on Him.

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Absolutely. Agreed.

Went for a hike with most of the grand kids we had a ball.

last night was weird. maybe it's the season coming on. maybe it was only the weather (but that kind of has to do with the season). it was dark, drizzly, and I had to go to a Subway (well, didn't have to, but it had a drive-thru, whereas other Subways nearby don't), but the Subway, as nice and clean as it is, had no one there, and it just made me feel heavy-hearted in the process. I didn't like that alone feeling. Luckily both a girl and a guy were working there, so I felt safer, but I was dismayed to see the lack of people there. It was like 9 o'clock at night though, so maybe that's the reason, but I've never seen this Subway get much business even at peak times. But last night was borderline trigger. I felt like I was in a strange land.

Lady Bug said:

last night was weird. maybe it's the season coming on. maybe it was only the weather (but that kind of has to do with the season). it was dark, drizzly, and I had to go to a Subway (well, didn't have to, but it had a drive-thru, whereas other Subways nearby don't), but the Subway, as nice and clean as it is, had no one there, and it just made me feel heavy-hearted in the process. I didn't like that alone feeling. Luckily both a girl and a guy were working there, so I felt safer, but I was dismayed to see the lack of people there. It was like 9 o'clock at night though, so maybe that's the reason, but I've never seen this Subway get much business even at peak times. But last night was borderline trigger. I felt like I was in a strange land.

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Interesting that you would feel that way. i would have been happy with no one around. i hate busy shops

Jeshu said:

Interesting that you would feel that way. i would have been happy with no one around. i hate busy shops

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that's a good point, I will try to think of it that way...
the thought of eating in there all alone though on a rainy night...it's like...I don't like people but why did it bother me last night...

Lady Bug said:

that's a good point, I will try to think of it that way...
the thought of eating in there all alone though on a rainy night...it's like...I don't like people but why did it bother me last night...

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Maybe you felt too exposed out in the open.

Jeshu said:

Maybe you felt too exposed out in the open.

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sorry could you elaborate on that a bit?

Lady Bug said:

sorry could you elaborate on that a bit?

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Depression often causes us to be very sensitive about our self image. To stand out in the open with no other people to hide among could be confronting therefore.