I badly need to see the truth of God's Word

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Praying for you that you will learn to rest in his arms;
Just love the Lord your God,
Worship and Praise him for dying for you,
He forgives all your sins,
Thank him every day for his great love to you
Thank you.
 
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I am struggling with and going through a much similar thing as you are my dear. I am very confused about what God wants. I even asked God on the treadmill today whether He would reward me at the judgment seat for having a life that didn't work out or punish me for it. I and my husband both feel that the truth of God's Word is coming back void. I know God has promised to come to our aid and that we would see His power at work in our lives. I am standing on God's promises for a miracle. I have prayed with fierce fiery faith, believing, asking seeking knocking and with great desperation for over 10 years. I am now fearful that what if the ball is in my court and that God has his arms folded until I do what He asked or obey Him. I have no idea how I might be disobeying Him. I fear that He might have told me to quit my job for example, but quitting my job to me would violate His Word. I am so confused about my decision making. I have made decisions based on the promises and commands of His Word, and they have fallen through and I am in debt because of a sincere decision made by faith in 2009 for example that did not work out. I am believing God to recompense us for our losses, and I am more desperate now than ever. I both fear that it is my fault for the outcome of my sincere decision not being favorable, yet I am also mad at God. I have nearly accused God of breaking His promises. Either way, I fear that God will leave us without a way to overcome the financial loss. I don't know what to expect from God or what to do, because I am not sure how God deals with someone with the unique challenges, weaknesses, and problems that I have. I will keep believing for God to bless us with a miracle to get us out of this rut that we have been in for over 10 years for as long as it takes pestering Him like the widow. Without either a miracle or a promotion, it seems we will never be able to pay this debt off. What if I'm at fault for wasting my life? I have prayed for God's plans and purposes for my life to ultimately prevail. I am also troubled about not even being able to serve in the way I thought God called me to serve due to roadblocks. Why would God be so cruel as to put a passion and desire on your heart yet not equip me to fulfill it? I know He's not doing that, but to the best of my understanding He has called me for something that He has no yet equipped me for. I get rejected from doing volunteer work even with my willing servant's heart, that how ridiculous things are. Doors are just not opening and it seems like God is silent and not answering my prayers. I am believing Him to give us the unusual solutions to our unusual problems. I have read the bible (not enough though) and countless Christian books with no breakthrough. I want to know of God's Unconditional Love, Grace and Mercy and understand His heart and His take on things. I am trying to sort truths from lies. I want a closer relationship with God, but can't seem to find it. I have been asking Him for loving acts, gestures, expressions to show me Himself since what He does goes hand in hand with who He is, but so far maybe only a few small answers. I will pray for You.

O dear Lord, please bring answers to this dear person's situation. Please intervene for a breakthrough for her just as I am believing You for a breakthrough for myself and my family O Lord. Please act on her behalf and give her the most favorable answers to her prayers. I ask this of You in Jesus name, Amen.
I felt like I could have written what you wrote - you have the same kind of reasoning/ wrestling: Here are God's Promises - why aren't I seeing their fruition? It makes no sense to keep experiencing and living less than what you know you can and less than what you think God wants - it's an uncomfortable situation: you trust the bible - you know it's true - you trust God's desire for good - yet it never comes to pass.

I pray that somehow you, others, and I will somehow have a breakthrough. I've been meaning to fast again but it's hard. Our old pastor said 'pray until you touch the throne' but I did that.
 
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I felt like I could have written what you wrote - you have the same kind of reasoning/ wrestling: Here are God's Promises - why aren't I seeing their fruition? It makes no sense to keep experiencing and living less than what you know you can and less than what you think God wants - it's an uncomfortable situation: you trust the bible - you know it's true - you trust God's desire for good - yet it never comes to pass.

I pray that somehow you, others, and I will somehow have a breakthrough. I've been meaning to fast again but it's hard. Our old pastor said 'pray until you touch the throne' but I did that.
Yep, I've tried fasting also. I still fast when I feel one is in order. I noticed how you said your son's business isn't taking off. That's the decision we were talking about that cost us to loose lots of money. We started a remodeling business with another family, and we provided the seed money from my husband's inheritance from my mother-in-law. It did not pay off. Our partners worked and got no rest, especially the husband, the excellent carpenter. He would have offers from Ryan Homes for example to help build the new houses (that's how good he is with wood) only for them to fall through. He did become a subcontractor for Thompson Creek for a while, but he didn't get enough work. They asked for additional money as well. Without getting into all the details, the business never took off and went under. I did not want to be like the foolish servant who buried his talent. Plus, we were already praying to God for recompense for my husband getting the shaft in his job. We really believed this business opportunity was of God. We thought it was an act of obedience to partner with this couple since they helped us when we were in a jam and it was a sincere attempt to improve our income since my husband quit his job to be a stay at home dad for our son. I am the breadwinner and it is a burden on me, commuting for two hours each way and having not been promoted for 12 years. I have tried other ways of making money that have not worked out either. I'm so glad we found each other. I thought my husband and me were the only Christians in the whole world experiencing this. I pray that your son's business takes off. God Bless You Sister!

Your Sister in Christ

Janet
 
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