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If any Calvinist comes on here just to exacerbate my torment, I will report him/her.
This is going to be quite incoherent... I'm just going to let it all out...
Why do I feel like God's going to damn me? I left Calvinism because I think that the Calvinist 'god' is a narcissistic monster and it reflects in those who are Reformed for themost part. Yet why do I feel like I'm going to be damned by that 'narcissistic monster?'
I am a solid Classical Arminian and I have put my faith in Jesus Christ, but it seems as if the Calvinist 'god' is still stuck in my psyche! I feel condemned... Damned... Like when I die, I'll meet Calvin's 'god' and be flung into the pits of Hell...
I joined Calvinism at the age of 18 and it was really logical! I could piece the 5 points together like a framework and interpret the Scripture through it. Limited atonement was the hardest one to accept but I finally grasped it too...
But then I realized the limited atonement wasn't true... Christ did for all... 1 John 2:2 is a perfect example... I looked it up in the Hebrew-Greek Key Study Bible to prove the case too... The Calvinists tried to tear my argument apart but I stood by the Word of God faithfully... The Bible is my standard...
And my whole Calvinist framework fell apart... Calvinism felt wrong. I felt the Holy Spirit leading me away from Calvinism and back to the Bible where I belong... I felt guilty of my futile Calvinist pride and confessed it before my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. God is love...
Sure, Arminianism isn't quite as logical but the Bible clearly points out that it's our responsibility to answer Christ's call... The God of the Bible isn't a logical device constructed by man. He's God, far more sovereign than the Calvinists could ever imagine... Sovereign enough to allow us to believe in Him! What a great God. Paradoxes are completely reasonable to God, think about that.
Yet I feel like I'm wrong, even though I truly feel like I am not. My views aren't perfect, yet no one's views are perfect. The thing is, the Calvinist 'god' is plausible if you cherry-pick certain Scriptures and string them together, and reinterpret certain words to mean something else.
I feel like I'm going to Hell... I feel like the Calvinists still have power over my mind... I used to love John MacArthur but now I don't hold to his 5-point Calvinism at all... I don't hold to 'any-point' Calvinism.
It feels like I broke up with a psychopathic ex... No matter how much times I tell myself that I forsook Calvinism, the TULIP still floats around in my head, mocking me... I can feel it condemn me at every point, calling me a reprobate and condemning me to Hell...
I believe in Jesus Christ as my Savior, I believe in the Bible as the literal and infallible Word of God, I pray often to Jesus to direct me in this life so I can become more like Him... I still struggle with my flesh and sometimes it outsmarts me... But I go to Jesus to ask Him for more strength to fight this constant spiritual battle...
I can't help it but wonder if Calvinism is in fact true and I am going to be cast into the fires of Hell for the reason that I was elected to damnation by a 'god' that has no grace! Yet again, the Bible teaches that God is a god of grace! For God so loved the world that He gave his only Begotten Son that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life! (John 3:16) Calvinists will twist that scripture until the meaning is completely different... I can only imagine...
The Bible is not an erudite document. It is for the everyday man... Calvinists don't get that. They have all these books... Damnation might just be around the corner for me and God will say that I got it all wrong...
Jesus, please help me... My God, deliver me from this torment and let the embers of Your Son grow brighter and brighter in my heart...
Also...
How can I fulfill the Great Commission if I have no social skills whatsoever? Is there any way I can fulfill it online without having to interact directly with people?
This is going to be quite incoherent... I'm just going to let it all out...
Why do I feel like God's going to damn me? I left Calvinism because I think that the Calvinist 'god' is a narcissistic monster and it reflects in those who are Reformed for themost part. Yet why do I feel like I'm going to be damned by that 'narcissistic monster?'
I am a solid Classical Arminian and I have put my faith in Jesus Christ, but it seems as if the Calvinist 'god' is still stuck in my psyche! I feel condemned... Damned... Like when I die, I'll meet Calvin's 'god' and be flung into the pits of Hell...
I joined Calvinism at the age of 18 and it was really logical! I could piece the 5 points together like a framework and interpret the Scripture through it. Limited atonement was the hardest one to accept but I finally grasped it too...
But then I realized the limited atonement wasn't true... Christ did for all... 1 John 2:2 is a perfect example... I looked it up in the Hebrew-Greek Key Study Bible to prove the case too... The Calvinists tried to tear my argument apart but I stood by the Word of God faithfully... The Bible is my standard...
And my whole Calvinist framework fell apart... Calvinism felt wrong. I felt the Holy Spirit leading me away from Calvinism and back to the Bible where I belong... I felt guilty of my futile Calvinist pride and confessed it before my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. God is love...
Sure, Arminianism isn't quite as logical but the Bible clearly points out that it's our responsibility to answer Christ's call... The God of the Bible isn't a logical device constructed by man. He's God, far more sovereign than the Calvinists could ever imagine... Sovereign enough to allow us to believe in Him! What a great God. Paradoxes are completely reasonable to God, think about that.
Yet I feel like I'm wrong, even though I truly feel like I am not. My views aren't perfect, yet no one's views are perfect. The thing is, the Calvinist 'god' is plausible if you cherry-pick certain Scriptures and string them together, and reinterpret certain words to mean something else.
I feel like I'm going to Hell... I feel like the Calvinists still have power over my mind... I used to love John MacArthur but now I don't hold to his 5-point Calvinism at all... I don't hold to 'any-point' Calvinism.
It feels like I broke up with a psychopathic ex... No matter how much times I tell myself that I forsook Calvinism, the TULIP still floats around in my head, mocking me... I can feel it condemn me at every point, calling me a reprobate and condemning me to Hell...
I believe in Jesus Christ as my Savior, I believe in the Bible as the literal and infallible Word of God, I pray often to Jesus to direct me in this life so I can become more like Him... I still struggle with my flesh and sometimes it outsmarts me... But I go to Jesus to ask Him for more strength to fight this constant spiritual battle...
I can't help it but wonder if Calvinism is in fact true and I am going to be cast into the fires of Hell for the reason that I was elected to damnation by a 'god' that has no grace! Yet again, the Bible teaches that God is a god of grace! For God so loved the world that He gave his only Begotten Son that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life! (John 3:16) Calvinists will twist that scripture until the meaning is completely different... I can only imagine...
The Bible is not an erudite document. It is for the everyday man... Calvinists don't get that. They have all these books... Damnation might just be around the corner for me and God will say that I got it all wrong...
Jesus, please help me... My God, deliver me from this torment and let the embers of Your Son grow brighter and brighter in my heart...
Also...
How can I fulfill the Great Commission if I have no social skills whatsoever? Is there any way I can fulfill it online without having to interact directly with people?