First off I want to thank anyone who responds to this thread in bid to give me some advice on how to tackle my problems. I am a 22 year old single male living in the united states very often i struggle with my faith and keeping the commandments, most notably those of not commiting adultery. I Feel as this problem has caused a great rift between me and god.Let me explain all my life I have never had much luck with women and this has caused my relationship with god to strain. I often get angry and bitter in life becuase I am single. The way the world is I see all of these other people who are good looking and have sex, relationships, love and what not. I struggle with the sin of envy. To top it off i learned its a sin to not touch here is the problem when i dont touch for days my hormones spin out of control and I literally flirt with many women Id go so far as to say at one point I ask out a women once a day. To combat this for years I would for years mastubate to curve this desire. But its like a cycle of pain you fall into sin no matter what you do. I am not meant to be single I need a companion, being single and having all of this difficulty has really strained my relaltionship with god and sometimes i get so lonley that i visit prostitute 2 times. I have prayed many times for god to give me a wife to relieve me of all this temptation. Here is a good analogy none of us can truly comprehend god and his plans. The way i look at it im like a dog and my owner even though he has the food in the cabinet he wont put the food in the bowl and im left here in my non comprehnension and confusion as to why he wont put he food there im lost. Im not meant to go through life alone and I think one day god will give me a wife but im telling you I want out of this situation. I just want a wife so I can honor god and have children and raise them to be good people while having my desire for sex to be fullfilled in the chrisitan way. Why is god letting this cycle of pain continue im like a broken record with him i just keep asking to fall in love so I dont have to deal with this sin anymore but he just wont answer he knows this isnt going to work out me being single. Also to top it off the way women dress now a days is utterly and completly appalling I appretiate the female form but danm these women dress half naked! I obvioulsy get excited and that leads to further sin its a vicious cycle of uneeded torment for me. What is the point of this how do i deal with this. God gave me all these hormones but its like i have to keep myself down. The way i can do that is to touch but that isnt clean in the eyes of god what is the way out of this. The way out as i see it is a wife i dont see any other way out or i could kill myself but that just leads to hell. Its a cycle of hassle that i just dont want to deal with. once again how can a christian male survive in a world like this and do right by god