Do you think God is closing the door on this?

Woah- you are reading way too much into your situation. You sound extremely anxious. Slow down, take a deep breath and look at your options carefully. You sound like you've been listening to personal impressions way too much and taking bible verses out-of-context "fortune cookie style". STOP IT. Looking for omens and signs to confirm/ deny if something is from God/ gods is what PAGANS do.

Forget about what you thought and felt in the past. If God is in control - and as a child of God you know that is true - if music is the paid career path GOD has chosen for you then it will happen. You don't have all the insider information but God has.

To make you look from the other side of the fence: one male relative was all set to go to join the army. All the plans were made. During the medical assessment it was noticed his heart rate was a little irregular. Long story made short - he was diagnosed with a heart condition, if not caught in time it would have meant heart failure, possibly needing heart transplant. If I thought like you are right now I'd be going " oh no, his career is ruined, his job future is shaky, what hope is there for him now...." Instead I said "if it wasn't for that heart beat being picked up, he may have died way too soon..."

Worst case scenario: let's say what you fear does come true, that your music career is finished, over permanently. That merely means God has another path for you that you don't know about yet. https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Proverbs+3:5-6&version=KJV, https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=proverbs+16:9&version=KJV, https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=proverbs+16:33&version=KJV

Sometimes if we screw up God has detours for us, it might take us longer, but we just repent and pick ourselves up and keep walking. All his promises are Yes and Amen.

Think of Peter walking on water. He could do it but the minute he took his eyes off Jesus he began sinking. Thankfully Jesus was right there to pull him up.

What this is, is when your faith is tested.

Read Acts 7 Concerning Moses, a speech given by Stephen -

23 “As he was approaching the age of 40, he decided to visit his brothers, the Israelites. 24 When he saw one of them being mistreated, he came to his rescue and avenged the oppressed man by striking down the Egyptian. 25 He assumed his brothers would understand that God would give them deliverance through him, but they did not understand. 26 The next day he showed up while they were fighting and tried to reconcile them peacefully, saying, ‘Men, you are brothers. Why are you mistreating each other?’

27 “But the one who was mistreating his neighbor pushed him away, saying:

Who appointed you a ruler and a judge over us? 28 Do you want to kill me, the same way you killed the Egyptian yesterday?

29 “At this disclosure, Moses fled and became an exile in the land of Midian, where he fathered two sons.

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Moses then missed God's will by striking down the Egyptian, he was trying to assert himself as the deliverer of Israel. This was pride. He came to the Israelites and assumed they would recognize him. He was trying to fulfill God's will through his own effort, but God wants to fulfill his will through God's grace and provision.

Yet, just because Moses fled Egypt and seemed to be totally removed from ever doing God's will, God was able to use him still.

About going into debt: It's not a sin to go into debt, other than why are you in debt? According to Deuteronomy 28, we should be lenders to all the nations. This does not mean you never have a debt, but that you are spiritually delivered from being in debt, so by faith, you get the blessing of being free of debt. God then delivers you from having to be in debt.

But if you don't receive deliverance from debt by faith, other than avoiding it out of wisdom, you will end up in debt. And even if you avoid it by wisdom, you may miss God's will then... because you failed to believe God to pay for your tuition 100% debt free.

Hebrews 13:21-
May he equip you with all you need
for doing his will.
May he produce in you,
through the power of Jesus Christ,
every good thing that is pleasing to him.
All glory to him forever and ever! Amen.

The solution is God's grace and provision, and believing his word for a way forward.

Godislove94 said:

I believe or at least think God made a promise to me and gave me a dream about having a career in music. But this fall I screwed up very badly in school because of a mistake about leaving a job that interfered with studying (I made the mistake of staying and didn't believe God could possibly be asking me to leave because then I'd have to borrow money for tuition. I thought this was a sin at the time). I still haven't gotten over it. I just found out tonight that a class I was supposed to take this summer to catch up got cancelled and now it's another roadblock in my path. Is it possible that the mistake I made was so bad that God is now taking that back? I was under deception for the first two years of my walk, what if it wasn't God telling me to do this (yes, I did pray for His will for months and yes I did get scriptures confirming it among other things. I was fully convinced at that time that He was asking me to give it up forever and kept pushing it away despite wanting it so badly)?

I don't know, but I'm so frustrated and upset at myself for the mistake I made and the situation that I'm wondering if it's time to say goodbye.

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Yeah- God doesn't work like that. At all.

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Perhaps education degree with musical training is something you can consider? Teaching ability is as much a gift as music.

Godislove94 said:

It was also suggested by a friend that maybe God never intended for me to finish with music. That's depressing and for the time being until I know what to do I'm asking God to help me give this up. I'm very angry, upset and hurt by all of this.

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some friend.
when someone tells you 'maybe God doesn't want you to blah blah, or isnt' that a sign that maybe you should' please don't listen to them, especially if they are NOT christian.

If God wants you to do something, He will let you know. You need to spend some time in prayer or ask an elder for prayer about it.
Aside from music there's other skills we all can learn that will help us on our journey in life. Many young people today think they have to specialise early. But sometimes we can be so focussed on ONE thing to the detriment of everything else.

Even the example of David - he was a shepherd boy, he was a musician and poet, giant slayer, military commander, eventual King. Joseph was dream interpreter, govt official, second in command. Even the women in the Bible though many were expected wives and mothers..all did different things. Whatever we do, is for God's glory.

I'm amazed at peoples musical talents - I don't have the same aptitude for music although I have had lessons here and there. All I know is it takes lots of practice to become really skilled. Not just classes but practice every day.

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Godislove94 said:

I believe or at least think God made a promise to me and gave me a dream about having a career in music.

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This is a big mistake. I don't put any stock in dreams. Most of them are random and meaningless.

Godislove94 said:

Another thing that concerns me is in 2nd Samuel when it talks about how David, even though God forgave him for what happened with Bathsheba, was no longer allowed by God to realize his dream of building the temple for Him. I worry that this could be the case with me and I wish I could go back to last summer.

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Godislove94:
This is why David wasn't allowed to build the temple.
1 Chronicles 28:3
But God said to me, 'You are not to build a house for my Name, because you are a warrior and have shed blood.

However, David was able to gather the materials, manpower, furnishings and plans for that temple that his son Solomon
would build. Solomon being inexperienced and young, David readied the necessary things for house that would
bear the name of the Lord.

Did God give you a dream of this music career?
Don't fret, it will come to be if he gave you that.

Romans 11:29
For the gifts and the call of God, are irrevocable.

You may encounter some problems and or roadblocks along the way but it will come to be if God has revealed it.

Godislove94 said:

I believe or at least think God made a promise to me and gave me a dream about having a career in music. But this fall I screwed up very badly in school because of a mistake about leaving a job that interfered with studying (I made the mistake of staying and didn't believe God could possibly be asking me to leave because then I'd have to borrow money for tuition. I thought this was a sin at the time). I still haven't gotten over it. I just found out tonight that a class I was supposed to take this summer to catch up got cancelled and now it's another roadblock in my path. Is it possible that the mistake I made was so bad that God is now taking that back? I was under deception for the first two years of my walk, what if it wasn't God telling me to do this (yes, I did pray for His will for months and yes I did get scriptures confirming it among other things. I was fully convinced at that time that He was asking me to give it up forever and kept pushing it away despite wanting it so badly)?

I don't know, but I'm so frustrated and upset at myself for the mistake I made and the situation that I'm wondering if it's time to say goodbye.

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You're looking way too deeply into this. Whatever you choose to do, God is with you. I made mistakes in my life, pulled out loans for school I didn't need, but God has been faithful during those times with His provision with money and other resources.