Can't stop making promises, need a friend right now

I even promised to post this! Sigh, I need help. Im taking medicine but its not helping much.I ask God for help over and over but i feel like he hates me. I prayed and now im on hold. I know He is a good God and will answer when i need it. It just hard because I said something to Him that I didnt mean and now I think He is angry at me. I hope He will forgive me. I keep having evil thoughts when ever I try to sing a worship song, like i want it to be to Jesus i sing to but i keep thinking something else(which im not going to post)I didnt mean it!! I hope God isnt mad!!! Its not me wanting to think this!! My thoughts say one thing and I get a pulling feeling that i should do another thing too. Like i think if i go on this site my so and so will die or something. Its sounds crazy to everyone but thats why im so depressed and I dont know what to say when people see me all sad and what not.
Ugg I start school again tomarrow and I feel very far from God. I can't stand being at school where I have looked like a nut running back to the class because I "forgot something" even though i know its because I had a thought that someone would get hurt if i didnt. or changing my seat every time I think'if i sit here this is going to happen. I just need someone to talk to right now. Im so sorry i keep coming back here i did get alot of good advice. I just need someone to tak to because my friends dont have ocd and im scared to tell them about this whole thing. Thelast time i did that i got the cold shoulder from them. My faily and friends probably think im a nut now i just want to cry in Gods arms but i feel like he is mad at me. I want Him to keep me.

Thank you both so much! I do feel better already. It sometimes feels like im boxed in but i know God can always reach in and pull me out of my misery. I was afraid that He was mad and wouldn't do it this time, but thank you for reminding me that He isnt mad. I feel so much better knowing He isnt angry with me at all, thank you so much!

Thank so much you both are very encouraging!^^ Im so glad that I had a chance to come to this site. Im so glad that God isn't mad!Ilove God so much! *hugs you both* *hug*


Perfect song Im listening to casting crowns praise you in this storm.
Im so glad you posted

i love ma Papa too ! ima check it out =] bless you ,

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Bless you 2!=)its one of my favorite songs