I am not quite sure how to explain that in English, but I try. Perhaps my other family member might makes some irritating noise sometimes. I just do not like attitude or provocative speech to deliver by those people trying to pick up or stir up a fight? Swear words? Wanna join a fight? One time they even said they able to retrieve knife or bullets. Saying something like that I consider that as provocation. The tipping point or inciting incident was half year later until I saw a couple of dead mouse placed at my front door with some urine?. One time one mouse was dead by drowning, the other times two mice were dead by poking. I just walked by their store, I ask who is in charge of this place? are you security of this place?
The first time I walked by I really like to beat up these people and would feel like to bring baseball bat as potential weapons
While face to face, I actually had some sort of sympathy and it cool myself a bit, I consider it as God's grace to stop me from being raged, because one guy is aging and the other is shorter than me by 10 cm. When I see elders, I just ask "if he is in charge of this place as guard here constantly"? The reason I ask was in case that I beat up wrong person or beat up a substitutes. But after their answering, with some pity, I just walked away.
One is probably security; the other is probably garbage collector of hospital or building.
I wear my gang like black T-shirt.
I just try to hold my tempers. I hope not to release my temper and wrath upon those misery garbage collectors.
“Whoever hits you on the cheek, offer him the other also" or "love you neighbor" I don't think I have God like endurance or great tolerance because they constantly said ill nearby my window where I can hear sometimes.
I pray I hope I don't act out my violence in nature and look for guidance, wisdom from above to calm myself down and I pray all these in Jesus name, Amen.
The first time I walked by I really like to beat up these people and would feel like to bring baseball bat as potential weapons
While face to face, I actually had some sort of sympathy and it cool myself a bit, I consider it as God's grace to stop me from being raged, because one guy is aging and the other is shorter than me by 10 cm. When I see elders, I just ask "if he is in charge of this place as guard here constantly"? The reason I ask was in case that I beat up wrong person or beat up a substitutes. But after their answering, with some pity, I just walked away.
One is probably security; the other is probably garbage collector of hospital or building.
I wear my gang like black T-shirt.
I just try to hold my tempers. I hope not to release my temper and wrath upon those misery garbage collectors.
“Whoever hits you on the cheek, offer him the other also" or "love you neighbor" I don't think I have God like endurance or great tolerance because they constantly said ill nearby my window where I can hear sometimes.
I pray I hope I don't act out my violence in nature and look for guidance, wisdom from above to calm myself down and I pray all these in Jesus name, Amen.
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