Dealing with isolation

[Fervent]

Hi all, I would appreciate if you would pray for some turmoil that is in my spirit tonight. I am currently being quarantined because my wife tested positive for COVID and is in isolation. Neither of us is showing any symptoms but I am having a hard time with the isolation. As I've reached out to others via text and digital communication I find myself even more isolated because everyone seems to be busy with their lives. Old feelings of abandonment are being stirred up that I am having difficulty dealing with and those feelings are bringing up feelings of inadequacy and simply snowballing negative emotions. This is especially problematic because I had just started to re-insert myself into communal life in my local church for the first time since the original lockdown in March finding ministry opportunities which feels like it's been a major theme of my life, never finding those connections of relationship being everyone's acquaintance and nobodies friend. Anyway...if anything in that rant jumps out as something you'd like to pray for, I appreciate it.

 

[Tone]

Abba Yah please Breathe Your Holy Breath into this Body and raise us up into the heavenly places in Yahshua ha Mashiach that we would be One, far above this vale of tears and pain. Amen.

Shalom my brother.

 

[DragonFox91]

That's how I feel all the time.

 

[Fervent]

That's how I feel all the time.

Most of the time, it's how I feel but I'm able to deal with it. Tonight it's just feeling somewhat overwhelming. The harder I try to reach out to people, the more I feel ignored and isolated since no one ever seems to reciprocate the attempts. When I had people I hung around with regularly I always felt like they regarded me as a piece of furniture rather than a person.

 

[DragonFox91]

Most of the time, it's how I feel but I'm able to deal with it. Tonight it's just feeling somewhat overwhelming. The harder I try to reach out to people, the more I feel ignored and isolated since no one ever seems to reciprocate the attempts. When I had people I hung around with regularly I always felt like they regarded me as a piece of furniture rather than a person.

I don't get it tho. You're married.

 

[Fervent]

I don't get it tho. You're married.

She's an exception to the rule. I actively tried to get rid of her and she just kept coming back for some reason. At one point I had an active social life but to maintain it I had to constantly lie through my teeth and flatter everyone. The minute I started telling the truth and trying to build genuine relationships no one wanted anything to do with me.

 

[look4hope]

Fervent, sorry to hear y’all have to go through isolation. Sending lots and lots of hugs. Glad you can come by here to share this time with us.

 

[Fervent]

Fervent, sorry to hear y’all have to go through isolation. Sending lots and lots of hugs. Glad you can come by here to share this time with us.

If it weren't for these forums and my class forums I'd probably be completely shutting down so it's definitely a blessing to be able to come here and read and get some kind of interaction.

 

[look4hope]

If it weren't for these forums and my class forums I'd probably be completely shutting down so it's definitely a blessing to be able to come here and read and get some kind of interaction.

Yes sir!

 

[mlepfitjw]

Very sorry to hear @Fervent. What will you do with this time? Take time to spend some times with your wife? Reading the new testament together or something?

You aren't really truly alone if you have God with you, or your wife if you have a mask, the covid transfers via contact with the mucus glands, so eyes, ears, nose. Mask covering, will help and not touching your face and always washing your hands after you get done changing bedsheets or whatever.

My life has been in and out of peoples lives a lot. My mother all my life worked two jobs, and kept her self busy with very little to any friends. My phone barely goes off. Do enjoy looking at tiktok and what other human beings are doing sometimes, they are silly, and creative.

One more note, Even Jesus Christ has friends but then they all ran off and left him after being turned into the Roman Guard by Judas...

We are going to suffer in all types of ways for the Lord Jesus Christ, but let us not lose hope.

Psalm 71:14 But I will hope continually and will praise you yet more and more. 2 Corinthians 4:16-18 So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day.

Ephesians 6:23 Peace to the brethren, and love with faith, from God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ. 24 Grace be with all those who love our Lord Jesus Christ in sincerity. Amen.


Hope things get better, sir. God bless!

 

[LoricaLady]

I pray you will be given insight and light into this virus concern.
I pray you will be glad to take this time to draw very close to your heavenly father and his son, to prayer and praise and Bible study.

Even outside of quarantine, such practices will leave you feeling that you were not alone at all.

 

[Fervent]

I don't get it tho. You're married.

It occurs to me now that the weight of the emotions has largely passed that there is not necessarily a connection between an emotion and the objective facts. I spent some time last night processing in a way I haven't in a long time and I realized I've been feeling something for a while that is a result of a childhood trauma I was never allowed to admit was a trauma and so have never dealt with emotionally. I'm now trying to make an assessment of the accuracy of my perceptions since as far as I can tell I do have one friend in addition to my wife, so there are intimate relationships in my life, but the vast majority of the people in my life I feel no intimacy towards nor do I know how to build intimacy with. I understand much of it comes through small talk, and while I understand the concept of small talk, the practice of it eludes me.