One other thing I am noticing about your posts, you seem to be reassured and directed at every turn. You seem to need a lot of direction.
I know He loves me because I have faith in His love for me. It is rare that I need any kind of reassurance. When I do, I read the Bible and I can see the love as he went to the cross for me. That there is love.
This is my favorite verse in the Bible and is usually in my signature:
NIV John 15:13
Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one's life for one's friends.
That is love and goes back to Jesus dying on the cross for me, you and everyone! When I doubt, and it's rare, that is the verse I to turn to. Then my doubt melts away.
So, maybe because I don't need much in the way of direction and reassurance is the reason why I don't have this drive to hear from Jesus as you do. There are Christians very much like me, they have faith that He loves them and that's enough. There are Christians like you, who need to hear it and that is your reassurance. Neither way is wrong and neither way is better than the other.
I really like the above post. There are a number of things I would like to address in it, but I understand where you are coming from. I know a lot of Christians have a very similar idea about the Lord and how we should respond to Him. It has a lot to do with 'freedom in Christ' and we do have freedom in Christ. He made us and in so doing gave us the freedom to make choices in our life.
Where you and I disagree is on how best to make our choices and use our freedom in Christ.
For example you concluded that I "seem to be reassured and directed at every turn".
I would certainly like to be reassured and directed at every turn! Specifically, by the Lord my God, I would like reassurance and direction at every turn.
Yet you seem to think that is a bad thing, while I believe that it is a good thing. So we might look at why we differ in this aspect. I will tell you why I think we differ on whether or not we should get direction from God at every turn or not? I think we differ because of our pride.
Is not God smarter than you?
Now I think God is smarter than me, so I have to conclude that seeking Him for what to do at every turn is much better than leaning on my own understanding. Further more, from listening to Him that line of thinking has proven to be correct and if anything it is vastly understated! It turns out the He is not just smarter than me, but rather that He is sooooo much smarter than me that I can not even grasp the difference in His and my ability to think. What could I compare the difference in intellectual capacity too? It I compare the difference to my ability to think and my cats, I have massively understated it.
We find out in the Scriptures that even Jesus Christ, the One who is the perfect image of the invisible God, did not think knowing the depths of God something that could be understood. So He response to the conclusion was to say and do only what the Father told Him!!!! Jesus Christ was in fact seeking "reassurance and direction at every turn," and He was receiving it!!!
Now, you point to the cross. Do you not know that Jesus asked the Father to remove that cup from Him? Never-the-less He made a choice to do the will of the Father. Jesus Christ had a choices to make and if you think you have been given freedom to choice don't you think Jesus, the only begotten Son, had been given the freedom to choose? He choose to be lead by the Father all the way to the cross!! He wanted out of it, and could have gotten out of it. He could have called on any incredible number of angels and had all His foes destroyed right then and there, but He made a choice to do and say only what the Father told Him.
I fall massively short of Jesus Christ. I sadly only hear from the Lord about a dozen different times a day. So while you think I feel the need for regular assurance and direction, I don't actually seek it nearly as much as I should. I would like to, but being a person I fall massively short of our Lord Jesus Christ.
The thing is, I have a better understand of how far I fall short of doing and saying only what He tells me than Christian who feel like they don't need to seek His voice for reassurance and instruction do.
You are correct in thinking 'I need regular instructions from Him' but you are wrong in thinking that any of us seek and get those instructions like we should!!!
We usually go about leaning on our own understanding, thinking we don't need God, that we are good and loving people to the right things. That is just pride. Of us it is written, 'If you being evil" Of Him it is written "only God is good". Yet somehow we conclude that we have learned how to be good.
My friends, have you not read that your best works are like dirty filthy rags to the Lord? Quite trying to live by your best works and start seeking the Lord and His words for you personally! God is love, not you! So if you can, seek Him and His voice so you might listen to Him at every turn.
Then He will no longer hide from you, and you will get instructions at every turn! That's a good thing!
Therefore
the LORD longs to be gracious to you,
And therefore He waits on high to have compassion on you.
For the LORD is a God of justice;
How
blessed are all those who long for Him.
O people in Zion, inhabitant in Jerusalem, you will weep no longer.
He will surely be gracious to you at the sound of your cry; when He hears it, He will answer you.
Although the Lord has given you bread of privation and water of oppression,
He, your Teacher will no longer hide Himself, but your eyes will behold your Teacher.
Your ears will hear a word behind you, “This is the way, walk in it,” whenever you turn to the right or to the left.