Hello All,
My struggle is fear. I want to live a decent life, but I am terrified of the future. I sometimes wonder why God had me born in times like these. Furthermore, I have parents and an autistic brother who are not in the best financial position. I feel certain I will need to help them someday, which I do not mind, but I have no idea how I will have the money to really help. I have put the idea of having my own family on the back burner because of this.
God is faithful and He provides - I've seen it over an over again. Yet I struggle to believe that "my God will supply all your needs according to his glorious riches in Jesus Christ."
This fear and the feelings of hopeless desperation culminate in a state of depression I've lived in for years. For awhile I was doing better - much better. Then I started paying attention to current events and thinking about the future in overdrive again. I am back in the dark depression hole. Taking my thoughts captive and trusting God both feel impossible. I can't keep living like this. Something has to change. Something has to give.
Advice and prayers appreciated.
My struggle is fear. I want to live a decent life, but I am terrified of the future. I sometimes wonder why God had me born in times like these. Furthermore, I have parents and an autistic brother who are not in the best financial position. I feel certain I will need to help them someday, which I do not mind, but I have no idea how I will have the money to really help. I have put the idea of having my own family on the back burner because of this.
God is faithful and He provides - I've seen it over an over again. Yet I struggle to believe that "my God will supply all your needs according to his glorious riches in Jesus Christ."
This fear and the feelings of hopeless desperation culminate in a state of depression I've lived in for years. For awhile I was doing better - much better. Then I started paying attention to current events and thinking about the future in overdrive again. I am back in the dark depression hole. Taking my thoughts captive and trusting God both feel impossible. I can't keep living like this. Something has to change. Something has to give.
Advice and prayers appreciated.