- Nov 4, 2018
- 81
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- Country
- United Kingdom
- Faith
- Pentecostal
- Marital Status
- Separated
I have been Bulimic since I was 10 years old. I was sexually abused at 9 years old by my mothers new partner. He sexually abused me until I was 16 years old until I left home. My mother also abused me. My mother died 12 years ago at the age of 62. She died from Alzhiemers disease. She suffered greatly for the last 10 years of her life. Though she hurt me I still prayed with her. I was able to forgive her. I am still bulimic and I have no control over it. It is part of who I am now. It is all I know. My step-father is still alive but serving 16 years in prison for what he did to me. He was sentenced this year in May 2018. He is now 77 years old. He will probably spend the rest of his life in prison. I have no idea how to eat a normal meal anymore. I prefer to eat soups and soft foods. I don't like that full feeling when you have had too much to eat. That's when I am sick. God is with me in my struggle because it is the norm to me. I don't know any different. Being Bulimic is my life now. I can control it.