- Jan 5, 2018
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- Country
- Philippines
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Single
Hi! Im new to this site and just wanted to share what i have experience for over a year now. My first time experience being single since birth. Im 26 years old already and since then i never experience having a boyfriend. I was raised in a very conservative Christian family as my father being a pastor, but they are not strict for us their child having boyfriend or girlfriend i just feel i dont like having one. Since child then i pray to God and promised myself that my first boyfriend will be my man forever thats my desire. I had a lot of crushes before, men wanted to pursue... but never ever entertained them but yet being friends with them thinking that it wasnt the right time. I desire Gods will... I desire a man that comes from Him. A man who will pursue me in prayer. A man who can build me up in Him with my relationship with God. At the age 22 seems no one comes I ask God to know that man at the age 25 for sure i will be ready on that time. God never fail me He showed me a vision with a man within my side while i was in the park. Its an assurance for me that He will grant my desire even i still dont know him who he was. Im 26 now, but last year I know this man. For over 5yrs weve been in the ministry together but never noticed him. Hes so closed to me treating him as my brother. We shared a lot together even those times our journey with Christ. I just notice him just last year and I dont know when it started? Maybe it started during in our church prayer meeting when he say to me he prayed for a special prayer and i just laughing at him and never entertained him. But i was strucked when he said to my churchmate in a joke seems that hes joking that hes praying for me asking God for a lovelife. I dont understand my heart that time and trying to control it and say "Lord, hes just joking! " but after all of those things happen. Im became not normal to him. I tried to treat him just like before but hes always teasing me that where meant to be. My churchmates even all people in the church teas us because he started it. And i dont know, it wasnt my first time to have a loveteam in the church since im still single. But it was my first time having this feeling i think my heart develops on him. Then i confirm then that maybe hes the one but until now im 26 he never pursue or making such move. Hes just joking around and i wanted assurance from him. I prayed to God that maybe i am doubting now because he never pursue. Hes serious now, yes were friends but not like before. I can feel the gap between the two of us. Just waiting him to move and waiting Gods intervention in between. Hes busy studying in a bible school and maybe thats the reason. But all i ask and pray now that if hes the one i will be having that assurance but if not God will vanish this what i feel for him because all i want is Hes will. But what should i do now? Is it right to still wait on him? I dont have assurance from him, hes just always joking around. But yet still love him... Or i just cant wait? Im just impatient...maybe. Or Im just assume something. Praying for Gods will.