Do you think Paul was "bothered" somehow, or unsettled by what he was doing with his preaching, or ministry, that made him say he was the chieftain of sinners...?
That maybe he wasn't completely OK with it for some reason, and what might those reasons be if he was...?
Do any of you ever feel that way about what you preach...? If so, why...?
God Bless!
Paul considered himself the "Chiefest of Sinners" because when he was Saul (before God changed his name to Paul) he was persecuting Christians which was his job (possibly even having them crucified). When he said this, I believe he was giving all us Christians an important message. Paul tells us that as a high ranking Pharisee, although he thought he was a "perfect" Jew in that he was able to keep all the commandments (or so he thought), there was one commandment that he couldn't keep, thus proving that it was impossible for anyone to keep the Law (the only man who ever did was Jesus which is why His sacrifice freed us from our sins as believers and thus our guilt). I believe that the "one thing" that Paul was referring to was "coveting" but that's perhaps for another thread.
When Paul called himself "the Chiefest of Sinners" he's referring to himself in the past tense but after he confessed, he was absolved of that sin (the Old man Saul who was the sinner was gone, and the New Man Paul no longer had the sin that Saul had performed on his account, i.e, had been "wiped off God's books"). One prayer that I like to use for myself at times is in Latin:
"Quod Vixe Tege"
"Quod Vivam Rege"
which means "my past life hide", "my future guide"
Like some of you, when I saw these scriptures I thought to myself, "if Paul's the Chiefest of all Sinners", what does that make me? Quite humbling. But what is the real message to us here? Well, if Paul was the chiefest of all sinners as the scriptures point out, and yet God converted him and that he''d become perhaps is the "greatest" of all of the New Testament Apostles who wound up writing approximately 2/3 of the New Testament then so can we do great things for God if we apply ourselves.
Manasseh was perhaps the worse King Israeli ever had, yet we are told that towards the end of his life, while in captivity by the Assyrians, he repented and was saved. The evil that this King did while reigning is so terrible I don't even want to repeat it (if you want to know what he did, see 2 Kings 21 and 2 Chronicles 33).
Yet there's two important things that I believe that God is telling us here:
1) That God's grace and mercy are so great, He can salvage anyone, no matter how much of a sinner they may be ("though your sins be as scarlet, they can be as white as snow . . . " "and though they be red like crimson, they can be as wool", Isaiah 1:18).
2) No matter how bad our sins have been in this life, God can still forgive us if we truly repent and change our way of thinking. He convinced Manasseh that He is the one "true" God. Manasseh believed finally, committed a true repentance and served God the rest of his life according to the scriptures.
Keep in mind that Manasseh became King at just 12 years old, which could not be a very good thing and perhaps this was taken into account but I believe it would hold true for everyone, including you and me. Thank God for His mercy and His grace and His love for us.
This is very important for us to understand. Sometimes it becomes very difficult for us to even forgive ourselves which can cause us much strife. This is I believe a "tactic" used by Satan to convince us that we cannot be saved which is untrue. If God could save Manasseh and Paul who he himself said was "Chiefest of all Sinners" He can save each and every one of us, "no matter how deep the stains of sin" might be within us. His grace is greater than anything that we've ever done I believe.
And Manasseh is just one example, look at David who committed Adultery and Murder and yet we know he too was saved, and who would write most of the Psalms, probably the most beautiful prayers, songs, and poetry ever written even would did suffer the rest of his life because of his transgressions as God is a God is a God of Justice and thus He must judge (something we all have to consider as even though our sins are forgiven and we become saved, some transgressions will bring forth judgment which are basically consequences for our actions). But we need to realize that it's well worth it, considering the end result, being in heaven with God in a perfect environment, a small price to pay for eternal salvation.
Even the thief on the cross was brought to Paradise with Jesus, after more than likely living a complete life of sin, another demonstration of God's love for us and His desire is that no one would perish (2 Peter 3:9). If there's a way to us, He will find it and after He finds it, He will have great things for us to do as we serve Him and bring more glory to Him. Blessings.