What's on your mind?

[SarahsKnight]

Anyway, Guardians Of The Galaxy is way better. I think I just triggered a bunch of hardcore Star Wars fans.

Actually I'm just playing. I would consider myself a casual Star Wars fan at best. I haven't even seen episode VII yet. Although Rogue One was pretty boring at first, I thought it was an okay movie overall, especially towards the end.

 

[Citanul]

Nature can be awesome.

 

[Swan7]

Looks like a sleeping rhino.

 

[ReesePiece23]

That seems odd considering all of the formalities in speech and gesture that the Japanese seem to have. But, wow, in that case, I could never eat out if I lived in the Land of the Rising Sun. There would be a murder in one of the ramen bars sometime soon after my move.

Go to Osaka in that case. Manners in central Tokyo are few and far between. The surrounding towns are better than the actual city really.

On my mind: Spotify just generated an absolute banger of a playlist. Not a single weak track in sight!! Kudos Spotify.

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

That seems odd considering all of the formalities in speech and gesture that the Japanese seem to have. But, wow, in that case, I could never eat out if I lived in the Land of the Rising Sun. There would be a murder in one of the ramen bars sometime soon after my move.

If I remember correctly, them slurping a meal like that is considered a compliment over there.

According to my Stepfather, sticking your chopsticks into a bowl of rice while eating something else is considered to be bad table manners.

 

[SarahsKnight]

Looks like a sleeping rhino.

It ... totally does. Hunh ....

 

[SarahsKnight]

Everyone, I ask that you please pray for me, for I have sinned greatly today, in a manner not befitting a knight at all in my own eyes, and I doubt it was befitting in God's eyes, either. I will be okay, for I know that the Lord forgives me even now, because He is that good, but still, the fight to live as a believer in Christ and child of the coming Kingdom of Heaven feels like too hard a struggle, sometimes.

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

So my friend told me that Feminists are saying there are currently 76 genders.

I hate being a Millennial.

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

Everyone, I ask that you please pray for me, for I have sinned greatly today, in a manner not befitting a knight at all in my own eyes, and I doubt it was befitting in God's eyes, either. I will be okay, for I know that the Lord forgives me even now, because He is that good, but still, the fight to live as a believer in Christ and child of the coming Kingdom of Heaven feels like too hard a struggle, sometimes.

Don't worry, your honour will be restored in due time. Thankfully God is patient, God is kind. He grants second chances like there's no tomorrow. Just take it from me.

 

[CodyFaith]

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[TheGirlOnFire]

@CodyFaith I spotted that before you deleted... weesshh you are still a pup

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

Sigh, I'm always going to be single I think... this is impossible...

Thankfully, you'll get something better in Heaven.

"Thus says the Lord: “To the eunuchs [those who cannot procreate but turn their lives into a unique service instead of marriage] who keep my Sabbaths, who choose the things that please me and hold fast my covenant, I will give in my house and within my walls a monument and a name better than sons and daughters; I will give them an everlasting name that shall not be cut off.” ~Isaiah 56:4-5

I don't know about you but I have always wanted to be a historical figure. Impossible for me in this world but a name better than sons and daughters in Heaven for an eternity is something I would be more honored to have than a girlfriend.

 

[CodyFaith]

@CodyFaith I spotted that before you deleted... weesshh you are still a pup

Am I though? I'm turning 25 in a month with no stable career, I'll have to go back to school for a couple of years in order gain a good career (if I can even handle the stress from school due to my mental disorder and such).
Nobody wants to date me due to my 1)baggage like mental disorder 2)lack of finances 3)criminal past and lack of "success" in life.
So finding someone to even date is near impossible, let alone someone to eventually marry. And it's not like these things are going away any time soon.

I've been patient for a year now... improved myself in all sorts of ways (not for women's sake,. but for my own sake and for God's sake) - yet not even one date... and I've been searching hard.

I live with a constant shame from my past and a constant embarrassment from my present. Life's so incredibly hard.... I honestly don't understand how I got here... things flowed so well when I was younger, then one morning I literally woke up with psychosis and my life hasn't been the same since. That was 7/8 years ago.
I ask myself - did I do something to deserve all this, or is it something that just "happened"? Whatever the answer is, I just wish this reality was different.... I had so much going for me in life. I feel cursed.

Thankfully, you'll get something better in Heaven.

"Thus says the Lord: “To the eunuchs [those who cannot procreate but turn their lives into a unique service instead of marriage] who keep my Sabbaths, who choose the things that please me and hold fast my covenant, I will give in my house and within my walls a monument and a name better than sons and daughters; I will give them an everlasting name that shall not be cut off.” ~Isaiah 56:4-5

I don't know about you but I have always wanted to be a historical figure. Impossible for me in this world but a name better than sons and daughters in Heaven for an eternity is something I would be more honored to have than a girlfriend.

If I could remain single, I would. But Paul writes not everyone is able to remain single... and that it's actually good for people like me to marry. I've known for a while I'm not one of those people that can stay single. I've been single for many years and it's really, really sucked for me.

So I'm sort of stuck, because Paul writes that it's good for people like me to marry, yet I can't even find someone to date...

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

If I could remain single, I would. But Paul writes not everyone is able to remain single... and that it's actually good for people like me to marry. I've known for a while I'm not one of those people that can stay single. I've been single for many years and it's really, really sucked for me.

So I'm sort of stuck, because Paul writes that it's good for people like me to marry, yet I can't even find someone to date...

You think I haven't had days where I wished Itzel was a real person in human form?

Some are born eunuchs, some are made eunuchs and some choose to be eunuchs. I am capable of attracting women (though I'm mostly clueless about it) but I have serious self doubts on keeping them. After breaking up with my girlfriend back in 2011, I found that I wasn't fit for relationships, let alone romantic ones. I honestly had no idea how to keep her happy and the drama and lies got to the point where I decided to end it. I even mentioned to her that I would like to remain friends with her but she got incredibly angry at me and we cut off ties. I never took up another opportunity to try it again out of fear of hurting someone or hurting myself.

I'm sorry to say but romance just isn't feasible for everyone. Being mentally ill is not only a romance killer but it's a social killer altogether unless you work extra hard at it. This is what caused me to put my hope into Heaven instead of Earth. I try to do volunteering, philanthropy, cartooning, working a crappy job, being a friend to an intellectually disabled guy and a whole bunch of others things in order to build myself a life in Heaven. My reasoning is that Earth is a lost cause for someone like me. Once in Heaven, I'll enjoy the life that was denied to me.

CodyFaith, you are a very calm, mellow, humble, helpful, wise, and faithful man whose life got ruined by luck of the draw. God knows your frustration and has collected all your tears in a bottle. He perfectly understands and intends to shower His blessings on you whether it be in this life or the next. There are people who get temporary blessings in this imperfect world and there are people who get eternal blessings in an already perfect Heaven. I personally think that God intends to make you so much more in Heaven where your earthly shame will win you Heavenly acclaim. Marriage is temporary. In Heaven you'll have relationships of a different kind that will far surpass those of this life.

Just you wait.

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

Am I though? I'm turning 25 in a month with no stable career, I'll have to go back to school for a couple of years in order gain a good career (if I can even handle the stress from school due to my mental disorder and such).
Nobody wants to date me due to my 1)baggage like mental disorder 2)lack of finances 3)criminal past and lack of "success" in life.
So finding someone to even date is near impossible, let alone someone to eventually marry. And it's not like these things are going away any time soon.

I've been patient for a year now... improved myself in all sorts of ways (not for women's sake,. but for my own sake and for God's sake) - yet not even one date... and I've been searching hard.

I live with a constant shame from my past and a constant embarrassment from my present. Life's so incredibly hard.... I honestly don't understand how I got here... things flowed so well when I was younger, then one morning I literally woke up with psychosis and my life hasn't been the same since. That was 7/8 years ago.
I ask myself - did I do something to deserve all this, or is it something that just "happened"? Whatever the answer is, I just wish this reality was different.... I had so much going for me in life. I feel cursed.

I understand how frustrated you are, I've been struggling like this my entire life. You did not do anything to deserve this. Many children did not do anything to deserve being abused by their parents. Many women did not do anything to deserve being raped by a stranger. Many did not do anything to deserved being assaulted, maimed and possibly killed by thugs looking for a thrill. It's a very imperfect world where sin has been gradually eating away a world that God once called 'Good'. Fortunately, this life is not the end of our stories.

I'd recommend reading this...

A Biblical View of Disability

It gives a lot of Biblical insight for those who have had their lives turned upside down by disability. I think this would be a nice read for you.

You deserve so much better than this.

 

[EyesOfKohl]

Nature can be awesome.
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Mediterranean? Italy or Greece?

 

[MehGuy]

Been paranoid lately.

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

Been paranoid lately.

I'm not paranoid. It's just that people are out to get me.

 

[CodyFaith]

You think I haven't had days where I wished Itzel was a real person in human form?

Some are born eunuchs, some are made eunuchs and some choose to be eunuchs. I am capable of attracting women (though I'm mostly clueless about it) but I have serious self doubts on keeping them. After breaking up with my girlfriend back in 2011, I found that I wasn't fit for relationships, let alone romantic ones. I honestly had no idea how to keep her happy and the drama and lies got to the point where I decided to end it. I even mentioned to her that I would like to remain friends with her but she got incredibly angry at me and we cut off ties. I never took up another opportunity to try it again out of fear of hurting someone or hurting myself.

I'm sorry to say but romance just isn't feasible for everyone. Being mentally ill is not only a romance killer but it's a social killer altogether unless you work extra hard at it. This is what caused me to put my hope into Heaven instead of Earth. I try to do volunteering, philanthropy, cartooning, working a crappy job, being a friend to an intellectually disabled guy and a whole bunch of others things in order to build myself a life in Heaven. My reasoning is that Earth is a lost cause for someone like me. Once in Heaven, I'll enjoy the life that was denied to me.

CodyFaith, you are a very calm, mellow, humble, helpful, wise, and faithful man whose life got ruined by luck of the draw. God knows your frustration and has collected all your tears in a bottle. He perfectly understands and intends to shower His blessings on you whether it be in this life or the next. There are people who get temporary blessings in this imperfect world and there are people who get eternal blessings in an already perfect Heaven. I personally think that God intends to make you so much more in Heaven where your earthly shame will win you Heavenly acclaim. Marriage is temporary. In Heaven you'll have relationships of a different kind that will far surpass those of this life.

Just you wait.

Thanks for the encouragement, needed to hear it. Eternal rewards is something I need to focus on more than blessings in this life, need to work to change my mindset I believe. While I believe there's both, I have been overly focused on this life lately - my future mainly. I'll have to work on that... and work on focusing on the things that truly matter.

We just get so bombarded by the world and even worldly minded Christians about "success" in this life and stuff. Even at church I get bombarded with these sort of things when socializing. Such empty things...

 

[CodyFaith]

I understand how frustrated you are, I've been struggling like this my entire life. You did not do anything to deserve this. Many children did not do anything to deserve being abused by their parents. Many women did not do anything to deserve being raped by a stranger. Many did not do anything to deserved being assaulted, maimed and possibly killed by thugs looking for a thrill. It's a very imperfect world where sin has been gradually eating away a world that God once called 'Good'. Fortunately, this life is not the end of our stories.

I'd recommend reading this...

A Biblical View of Disability

It gives a lot of Biblical insight for those who have had their lives turned upside down by disability. I think this would be a nice read for you.

You deserve so much better than this.

I will say though, I definitely do not deserve anything. I'm a sinner saved by grace whose just incredibly thankful for God's mercy. I've done bad things in life, which just makes his grace show brighter.

Edit - lol spell check "dinner saved by grace" -.-