Hi. I am a seeker, I don't believe in any religion or anything, but I'm simply living and trying to be open-minded about everything. I believe that there are many phenomena and sides to life that we do not really know and understand. For example, what people call "spiritual things". I have been going to all kids of churches and mosques and temples etc. here in Canada, and, to be honest, the people there, the majority, seem to me to be superficial and do not really care about the matters of their faith. I have deep and sincere conversations with them. Not at all looking to argue or to be negative etc. Just as equals, two souls sharing things - trying to show maximum respect and understanding, to hear people as they are. To really try and understand their views, their beliefs, their experiences. Sometimes they get protective seeing me as an "attacker" (though I think I'm absolutely not), or sometimes they prefer not to answer my questions, for example. But generally, people very much appreciate my interest. Yesterday I went to a Pentacostal church service, you know, nothing is different. They are so much the same, all these churches. Again, most honestly, it seems like a theatrical performance, a show. And my heart is strongly seeking and looking for something real. Please do understand me right: I did not come to judge. I came to try and see something real. The people are nice and friendly, and I was very nice, so no problems whatsoever. It's just I can see it's a kind of formality to all of them, starting from the pastors and music people and all church goers. I don't know after many years of these experience I learned how things are and to see if somebody or something is for real, which is a very very rare occurrence - in my experience at least. I have been going through many trials in my life of different nature, but trying to stay strong. I see most support from "spiritual people" coming from non-religious individuals who strongly seek these phenomena with open hearts just by themselves on their own effort. They seem to be most sincere and honest with themselves and people around them... Which requires true inner strength and courage! What do you think? Am I being judgmental, and perhaps it's wrong? I'm not specifically against Christians, I just happen to spend time more among them, and they are nice friendly people, no problems. I have similar impressions of people of any faith. There is much pretense, or there are claims that obviously don't seem to be truthful. Organized religion seems like an erroneous path to me.
As another thought, I've been to many countries in the world, some of them very poor countries, there I've seen more of the true believers I think. Though the problem is present there too. But it seemed to me there if people believed, they believed quite more. Like, stronger and more sincere faith. I don't know. When you spend a limited time as a visitor, you might be mistaken in your impressions. The part of the world I know is pretty materialistic and superficial. It's actually very sad. And also, as people get more educated about since and stuff, it seems they loose faith very much, and why they are holding to faith it's that they have to rationalize many things such as they in reality believe very little.
If you can help me make any sense of it all, I would appreciate it. I hope I do not sound very confusing.
(Sorry for my English - it's not my native language)
As another thought, I've been to many countries in the world, some of them very poor countries, there I've seen more of the true believers I think. Though the problem is present there too. But it seemed to me there if people believed, they believed quite more. Like, stronger and more sincere faith. I don't know. When you spend a limited time as a visitor, you might be mistaken in your impressions. The part of the world I know is pretty materialistic and superficial. It's actually very sad. And also, as people get more educated about since and stuff, it seems they loose faith very much, and why they are holding to faith it's that they have to rationalize many things such as they in reality believe very little.
If you can help me make any sense of it all, I would appreciate it. I hope I do not sound very confusing.
(Sorry for my English - it's not my native language)
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