Ok. Try becoming a mouse, right now. Not working? Ok, tested and answered. You don't have that freedom.
Yes. So how is that any less restrictive than not having the freedom to be evil would be? I know what I can and cannot do, and that's not really the point. The point is that for some reason, you view evil as a necessary freedom for free will to exist, but you don't view being able to transform into whatever animal we want as necessary for freedom to exist. What makes one necessary for free will, and not the other? The funny thing is, I actually view the former as being more restrictive of free will than the latter, because I could see people actually wanting to be able to transform into animals but being unable to as our minds are now, but prior to the fall, it is implied that Adam and Eve were without the capacity to even understand the difference between good and evil, thus not only could they not choose to be evil, but they wouldn't have the desire to be evil in the first place. If you make people so that they would never want to be evil, then the choice doesn't matter because regardless, evil is not going to happen. Allowing people to be evil when it hurts others also doesn't violate free will any less than preventing people from acting out their evil desires; it just makes it so that the free will of their victims is violated as they are killed and raped against their will rather than the wills of the rapists and the murderers.
Now, try hurting another person in whatever way you'd believe is evil (i.e. stealing from them, ripping on their physical appearance, smacking them, or whatever). Are you able to do those things? If so, is there any reason why you would not do those things?
I'm not going to hurt someone for the sake of this debate, and I wouldn't recommend you suggest I or anyone else do so again. Here's a question for you, though: if I had the capacity to prevent all the rapes that would ever happen within my lifetime without impacting my personal quality of life or even exerting measurable effort, would it be immoral for me not to prevent these rapes? If it is immoral for me to stand by and do nothing, how do you reconcile the fact that in order to prevent these rapes, I am obviously restricting the rapists from enacting their will in some way? If it is moral for me to stand by and do nothing, then why do we bother having police and laws?
But to address your question, yes, I am capable of harming other people. I was an unruly child, so I also have actually harmed people physically in the past. Autism makes interaction and tolerance hard, and the ultimate reason why I am on this site is to improve my social skills and patience. In that way, it has worked out very well. However, I generally lack the desire to harm others, and when I do feel like it, the fact that I would obviously end up hurting myself down the line from doing it usually will keep me in check. Usually... my self control could always stand to be improved. As it were, most of the time that I do harm to others emotionally, it is unintentional and I have done another of my social flops. You do know that as a social species, we all directly benefit from getting along, right? As in, our survival chances improve when we work together? Our inclinations towards not harming each other are naturally selected for. It's the closest thing to an instinct we have.
The creator is the source of all purpose and meaning.
The creator I don't believe exists. Kinda a pointless thing to say to an atheist.
Any place absent the creator is hell.
If that's all hell is, then I can't fathom why it is such a torment. I mean, I'm pretty unhappy, sure, but not fire and brimstone unhappy. And I do find joy still in some aspects of my life. If it was all bad, I probably would have killed myself by now.
Who says non-existence isn't an option? Perhaps the typical scenario of burning in a lake of fire is misunderstood. Perhaps it is temporary until one has paid for their sins and then they simply burn into non-existence? Or perhaps the non-existence is instantaneous. Who knows.
The bible implies it is eternal, but I wasn't just referring to hell with that. I know the concept of this might seem impossible to you, but what if a person in heaven doesn't want to exist anymore?
I've also experienced this, both in others and in myself and I know from my own personal experience that I had these feelings because I had no sense of purpose or meaning in life. I chose to view life differently and now I do have purpose and meaning.
Good for you, but a lack of purpose and meaning wouldn't bother me in the slightest. I don't need my life to have some inherent purpose to be happy, because I could provide that for myself if needed. I also find meaning in my life just for the experience of it. The beauty of a sunset, the smell outside while it is raining, the feeling of my grandmother's carpet beneath my feet... is that not worthwhile? The journey of life is what makes it great, which is why I loathe the end of that journey and my existence with it so much. Death doesn't just take away the potential future experiences, but wipes out all the past ones too. That is, from my perspective. That's the big problem I have with death.
We're all different; different circumstances, different environments, different chemical balances but we're also all similar in that we have access to meaning and purpose which is bigger than our own personal circumstances.
Sure. Even if deities don't turn out to exist, that could be true. But my life being meaningless or purposeless, or alternatively having one or both of those things, would have no impact on my happiness. I legitimately do not care if I was made for a reason or a result of simple causality.
God isn't stupid. He examines each individual on their own personal merits/issues and makes allowances or sets standards for what he believes they are able to handle. Whatever the circumstances, he will be fair to each individual.
And the Hindu child that dies at the age of 13 by being run over by a drunk Christian driver goes to hell, while that drunk driver is forgiven for his sins and goes to heaven because of belief. Life is never fair, and everyone is given more than they can handle because they die from it. If you pretend that the injustices of the world are somehow ok, that there is some divine justification of them, then why do so many donate to charity to alleviate the pain and suffering of those placed at a disadvantage? Entire communities wiped off the map by militia were not given more than they could handle?
What you choose to believe is up to you. Your choice.
Demonstrate that it is a choice. Make yourself believe that the color of the sky is gold with purple stripes. If you can do that, then clearly, I am not trying hard enough. If you can't, then you understand that there is a limit on how much conscious choice influences beliefs, and that if your quality of afterlife was dependent upon you believing that the sky was gold with purple stripes, you'd be doomed.
If you feel you cannot bring yourself to believe in a power/intelligence greater than that of humanity then at the very least do the best you can to love others around you just because love is something that you'd want others to show to you.
What makes you think I don't do that? Just as an afterthought, my family would be absolutely wreaked if the Christian afterlife actually existed, because about half are Christians, and the other half are atheists or of other faiths. My mom would be separated from half her kids and her mother.
Yeah, I stand by my position that you are willfully an atheist. What's the alternative?
That I am in a lot of pain, and that you not trusting me to understand my own struggle is not helping

I know I am not choosing this, and regardless of what you or others think of my claim, I will always know the truth. Behaving as if I am wrong is not going to change what I live every day, it's just going to leave you without an answer to a possibility that makes you uncomfortable.
If it's not you choosing to disbelieve in a God, then what did cause you to come to that conclusion?
A variety of factors. I'll list out the ones I can remember and confirm as definitive or highly likely contributors to it.
1. I was never indoctrinated, and any time I did ask about god or religion, my family members were relatively dodgy about it.
2. I figured out icons such as Santa Claus weren't real on my own, and at a very young age. I lost trust in what people said, so I was trying to test claims for validity at a ridiculously young age. The fact that I couldn't trust people to be honest to me likely damaged my ability to have faith in much of anything without a great deal of evidence. I did end up trying to test god, praying to get it to converse with me and getting nothing but silence. I tried praying to find things that I lost or to succeed, but not 1 prayer was answered. I'm not even exaggerating, from about age 6 to age 8, I kept track of them to see if they would ever be answered, because someone told me that god doesn't always answer them immediately. I am 21, and not one of these dozens of prayers was ever answered (the ones for conversation are not included, for the fact that if that was answered, that would pretty much establish belief instantly). By the age of 10, I pretty much assumed that god was like Santa Claus, though I would still try prayer if I was extremely desperate. Nothing.
3. After the deaths of two people very close to me, I was desperate to have an answer for the implications of death. I ended up reading the whole bible by myself. I count this as the most significant contributor to my continued lack of belief in YHWH specifically. After that abject failure, I'm rather loath to get into other religious texts with the intent to believe their content.
4. I continue to have no exposure to any evidence for the existence of deities, despite actively searching for it for it.
And if that is the case, then how far does this inability to choose extend through your consciousness?
Through my consciousness? It doesn't, because if I was consciously aware of what exactly was going through my mind to prevent me from believing, I'd have a much easier time dealing with it. I know my standard of evidence contributes to it, but one cannot actively change that, because it is shaped by one's experiences and perceptions, not by choices. It's not like I knew at the time that I was setting myself up for future belief failure, so how your experiences will affect that is completely outside of your control, and perceptions vary from person to person in how much they can be influenced, and what causes the variation isn't exactly known. Even with the variation, you can never have complete control over that aspect either.
Are you suggesting that any time you hurt another person, it's because that's just how you are, with no choice of your own in the matter?
Just because beliefs aren't a fully conscious choice doesn't mean fully conscious choices don't exist. There are specific reasons why beliefs are not the same as deciding between a fish taco and a plate of noodles. For example, I could choose to eat the noodles because they are healthier (assume the taco is super greasy), but if I prefer the taste of fish tacos over noodles, I can't choose to prefer the taste of noodles instead. However, over time, I might eventually come to prefer the noodles, and with extreme self-awareness, I might even be able to directly influence it a bit. Also, these food preferences are most malleable when one is young. Beliefs are more like taste preferences than choosing what to actually eat.
Or the opposite, when you choose to show love to another that it's not any kind of choice you make, but just the reality of how you are without any thought of your own about it?
I don't view likes and dislikes as fully a choice either. Could you make yourself hate the taste of chocolate because it is bad for you, or make yourself love the taste of mangoes because they are good for you? Not in any immediate sense, even if you have the fortitude to do it. Beliefs are even harder to influence consciously, because I actually have forced myself to be unable to tolerate the smell of cigarette smoke (a smell I used to love as I associated it with my grandmother) after hearing about how harmful second hand smoke can be, but I have been unable to make myself believe in deities. I managed to believe in an afterlife briefly, but that disintegrated rather quickly.
And what if someone loved you? Would you be okay to hear them say, "I have no choice in the matter. I don't even know why I love you; I just seem to have no other choice". Would you be okay with that explanation?
I am aware of at least some of the reasons why I am not a believer; I just can't change them. But hey, not everyone is very good at self-awareness, so if my fiancé said that to me, I'd be ok with it. Life would be a lot less complicated if we could choose who we love at will, now wouldn't it?