Everyone is what they are by choice because we all have a free will. I realise that there are many who are forced into prostitution and sex slavery especially in countries in the Middle East and Africa but in Western Civilisation that is not the norm. I am a christian because I chose to believe the Word of God. You are an atheist because you chose to believe what they say. If that is not the case then one can correctly claim that they forced you to become an atheist.
Then willfully choose to believe that the color of the sky is a polka dot pattern of gold and silver. Belief is not fully a conscious choice; much of what we can believe depends upon our experiences, and developed tendencies towards being open to it or not. As it is impossible for one to control every experience that they have, it is likewise impossible for an individual to ensure that they will be a believer. Since I grew up in a household where religion was not priority, I was never indoctrinated, so the greatest opportunity for me to become a believer was lost. Figuring out on my own that the tooth fairy, Santa Claus, etc. were not real, despite my mother constantly trying to tell me otherwise, did not help. I wasn't brought up as an atheist, but in a way, that more effectively lead me to being one in that I ended up concluding on my own that, with no evidence of deities in sight, they were probably as real as the Easter Bunny.
However, the potential implications of this would not hit home until the deaths of both my great grandmother and my grandmother on my father's side within the same month when I was 13. The thought that such great people were no more was unacceptable, but my thoughts went there nevertheless. In desperation, I sought out anything, literally anything, that could count as evidence for an afterlife. I was such an emotional wreak, I even considered the show Ghost Hunters to be potential evidence for an afterlife, and it actually comforted me for a little bit (I eventually realized how idiotic that was, and the comfort left within a year and a half).
I've been battling depression ever since, as well as my own mind. There was a brief period in which I was absolutely certain that no deities could possibly exist, but a college philosophy class prevented me from going full on "angry young person antitheist", and helped me open up more to other possibilities, and also experience less stress at generally being wrong and the thought of being wrong in all regards, not just religious ones. However, I am still left with a difficult standard of evidence. Nothing that any theist has presented to me as evidence has hit me as convincing. Even knowing why I don't buy it doesn't give me control over how I interpret the evidence, and the closest I could come to that would be lying to myself and others, and knowing constantly that I have resorted to a measure that makes me both dishonest, and any comfort nonexistent.
Also, on the matter of free will, humans have limits on how much control over our thoughts and bodies that we have. It doesn't matter how much I try to will it, I can't ensure that I won't have nightmares from time to time, nor can I flap my arms and soar through the sky. I am not choosing to be an atheist, because the implications of it put me in so much pain, that I consider killing myself on a weekly basis just so I don't live in constant fear of my inevitable death anymore. Alas, thus far I am too terrified of the potential complete end of my existence to go through with it, but what is a life constantly bogged down with the despair of a doom slowly creeping closer every day? I would rather go to hell than have my consciousness cease to exist, which makes threats that people like me are going to go there really ineffective, seeing as not only do I not think that hell exists, but the oblivion that I do think awaits me is far more terrifying.
if my memory serves me correctly but it may not at my age, you rubbished christians as being dumb. I used these people which I have some knowledge of to point out that they are far from dumb. I could have picked up a load of names off the internet but chose not to. These are men that I either knew personally or had studied so I was confident about my choices. You will note that I don't make supercilious claims like atheists do that "most christians..." which is patently unprovable. There is no doubt that when you read such claims from atheists, we are definitely being exposed to very bad arguments. it doesn't worry me too much because I put down to the fact that they have no evidence for their position so they have to use the gift of exaggeration and generalisation and hope no one notices.
I have never suggested Christians are dumb; just that I have seen bad arguments on this site. It doesn't make those people dumb necessarily to use those arguments either; they could be misinformed, or just bad at debates. I did say the one guy you named that is a Trump supporter is dumb, but not because he is a Christian, but because he is supporting Trump over more viable Republican candidates. I prefer that the turds that head governments at least have a significant background in politics, especially in foreign interactions. But, that's my bias doing the talking; it wins this round, I am not taking it back, I legitimately view supporting Trump as so stupid, that I can't view any Trump supporter as intelligent. It isn't fair, and it is fallacy, but it would be dishonest for me to say I ever give Trump supporters the benefit of the doubt.
No, as I said I don't record everything in case I am asked by atheists for a link. My life is not lived for the benefit of atheists. It is lived for the glory of God. That means he is the only one that I want to please. What others think is irrelevant to me that is why when atheists try and put the guilt trip on me it falls on deaf ears.
I told you that it is fine that you do not have it; things like that just make more of an impact when you get to see it for yourself rather than hear about it second hand, wouldn't you agree? I'm not going to give you any sass for it; it's not like I keep track of every source I bring up.