I have been diagnosed with a number of conditions and it is easier to pray for others, but it is hard for myself. I don't know why this is, but I have doubts that God will answer my prayers about myself. For other people it is less frustrating to pray for them. I find myself frustrated about this. I even find myself questioning God about even healing others. What is wrong with me? You see, I have a first cousin who died in July and I have prayed for him, but he grew worse. How do I pray to the Lord about my fears and doubts? It is as if I am concentrating on the words that I am praying because I am repeating the same words over and over again. I need your advice on this. How should I pray for healing for myself and for others? Is there a reason why God doesn't answer my prayers? Is God trying to tell me something?
*Everyone who was prayed for and or was healed in the Bible eventually died
and the same is true for "today".
This "world" isn't all there is.
Prayer is talking to God about what is affecting you and or others.
You can admit to having doubts/fears etc...
There's no call for a fancy formal prayer or saying it in poetic form etc.
Tell the Lord what is troubling you -- be sincere.
I like what Jesus said when he prayed about what he was facing
(while in the garden at Gethsemane) -- He prayed fervently for that cup to
pass but in the end he said:
Father, not my will be done but thine.
Jesus put the whole matter (including himself) into his Father's hands.
We too, should follow His example.
God can use you (us) in sick or in health, whether rich or in poverty,
gender, age, ethnicity etc. don't matter-- God uses folks who are willing/& or trusting in Him.
He still trusts--
My husband had an accident at work over 3 yrs. ago and had to have
his left leg amputated, he also has severe allergies, hyper-sensitive skin,
he is deaf and has developed osteoarthritis is his joints...his right leg is
now bone on bone and there's knee replacement surgery looming--
we are in the process of getting a stair-climber installed in our home
in the early spring.
My husband experiences pain every day and often has trouble sleeping due to
phantom pain/sensations.
Even though he is troubled by all that, his outlook is good and he's not
bitter. My husband has developed a much deeper faith walk with the Lord
since his accident and amputation.
Still serving--
My husband has been taking terms conducting the mens bible study group at church, he and I also are on the pastoral care team; we also sing
in the little chorus group that visits two nursing homes here in town.
We also do a little volunteer work.
We still believe, pray and serve others as we are able to do so.
We pray for healing, we pray mostly for boldness/perseverance
and we pray faithfully for others. Even though we haven't been healed
we do know others who have been healed and we rejoice for them and thank
God for it.
I do know (through others who have told us) that we have inspired them
and or blessed them by our witness.
Many of those folks have also been a blessing to us as well!
I don't have all the answers but I do hope this can be of help to you
in some way.