I don't go to church, but I am looking for brothers and sisters in christ.
I'm not looking for a "church" I'm looking for a fellowship. Honestly I find church services boring, very impersonal and overall not engaging. That's every church I've been to and I've been to about 7 or 8 in my life so far. I never liked the idea of sitting in a pew for hours listening to a man or woman at a pulpit scream verses or sermons. I never felt like I accomplished anything sitting at a church other than singing, saying a prayer when I'm told to and hearing verses that I've heard a million times before. Church service has never been an outlet for me just more of an inconvenience. This is why I'm looking for a fellowship. A place like in someone's home where we sit around an enjoy each others company. Tell each other our struggles, ask questions about scripture that we don't understand. Learn together, support each other, have a dialogue and grow closer. Something more personal. Something that doesn't seem like such a facade put on for face value just to have a specific appearance of holiness. I want to hang out with my brothers and sister in Christ where I'm most comfortable, where I'm not expected to have to "wear this" or "bow my head" at this moment. I want to really fellowship the way Christ intended us to. I don't feel like i'm with family when I'm in a church building and I consider my brothers and sisters in Christ an important part of my family. Am I being unreasonable or has anyone else felt this way?
I'm not looking for a "church" I'm looking for a fellowship. Honestly I find church services boring, very impersonal and overall not engaging. That's every church I've been to and I've been to about 7 or 8 in my life so far. I never liked the idea of sitting in a pew for hours listening to a man or woman at a pulpit scream verses or sermons. I never felt like I accomplished anything sitting at a church other than singing, saying a prayer when I'm told to and hearing verses that I've heard a million times before. Church service has never been an outlet for me just more of an inconvenience. This is why I'm looking for a fellowship. A place like in someone's home where we sit around an enjoy each others company. Tell each other our struggles, ask questions about scripture that we don't understand. Learn together, support each other, have a dialogue and grow closer. Something more personal. Something that doesn't seem like such a facade put on for face value just to have a specific appearance of holiness. I want to hang out with my brothers and sister in Christ where I'm most comfortable, where I'm not expected to have to "wear this" or "bow my head" at this moment. I want to really fellowship the way Christ intended us to. I don't feel like i'm with family when I'm in a church building and I consider my brothers and sisters in Christ an important part of my family. Am I being unreasonable or has anyone else felt this way?