Hi guys, today is the 2 year anniversary of my wifes death and i dont really chat online much but feel very emotional today and want to share her story and get it out of my mind because its all i am thinking about this week nonstop, ill try to keep it short and sweet.
but we started dating at 16 in highschool and fell in love and stuff, from the first day i laid eyes on her i had this feeling that she was something different.
after we graduated we both went to a medical university in india, i got my degree in medicine and she got her masters in psychology, after we finished we got married and my uncles a chief surgeon in a hospital in new delhi and got me a job as a junior physician and her as a clinical therapist.
a little about her, she was same height as me about 5"8 thin but very shapely, but the most humble girl u will ever meet, i never seen her in any jewlery even on our wedding day, she never wore any make up and just kept her dark brown hair tied back or sometimes just let it fall on her shoulders, her clotehs were pretty simple, mostly she would wear khaki capri pants and a black or white or gray top (she never really wore mcuh colored clothing) and no jewlery except the watch i got her in highschool she loved it and i seen it on her wrist everyday til teh day she died.
but even with all this, no one could doubt she was gorgeous, and her presence was something different, we were to gether for only 8 years and faced daily challenges of life but never once did i hear her raise her voice and she always spoke like just above a whisper, and my uncle described it best, its like sweet nectar to the ears, and even though she spoke quietly, when she opened her mouth it was like heaven and earth would quiet down to listen to her voice.
i could spend all day telling about things she did that blew my mind but heres a couple that really blew my mind.
1. on our 1 year anniversary i had some money saved up and got her a diamond necklace and earing set and i gave it to her that evening, she smiled huged me for a while then she said "you know, i want to return this and donate the money to the free eye clinic in town. if we can just give one person the gift of sight, that would make me more happy than all the diamonds in the world."
i was shocked but did as she wished, and we donated about 45,000 rupees which is about 1000 USD. and we got a letter from teh clinic a year later and said just on our donation alone they were able to go to a rural village and perform about 200 cataract operations on various orphans and elderly people.
2. at the hospital she specialised in grief support and giving peopel coping skills. i worked rotations, like one month id work in the diabetic clinic, next month psych ward, etc... well i did a couple months in the psych ward and it was cool because we got to work together alot. and i this one lady in her 20s that suffered from chronic PTSD since she got raped. she never spoke and just the smell of a mans cologne would make her fall to the floor in tears.
she was inpatient for about 3 weeks and the meds werent helping one bit and we had the head therapists councel her, but to no avail. i told my wife about her one evening and she said let me talk to her. so i finaly was able to convince the matron nurse to let her come to my wifes office and we got there and she asked me and the nurse to wait outside.
she spent less than 20 minutes in the office with my wife, and i waited outside and within 20 mins i hear like LOUD laughter. i went in and i just saw my wife smiling at her and she was laughing like a little girl and chewing on a piece of taffy from my wifes desk. it was like a 180 degree turn and my team kept her in teh hospital for a extra week just incase she relapsed but she never did. she left the hospital with a smile on her face and it just blew my mind.
a few nights later i asked my wife what did u tell her in just 20 minutes? she smiled gave me a kiss and said in a sing song voice "its confidential!
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well any way time pass on and one morning i was getting ready to go to work and she said in a serious voice, "i want to spend today with u, dont go" i asked my boss if it was ok and he said it was so me her spent the whole day in the city, we went to the zoo, the lotus temple, the redfort, everywhere. that night we were lying in bed and she said in her serious voice again "u are my mate, and we will be together forever" and i was like cool....
she rolled over to go to sleep and i turned off the light and kinda thought about what she said for a few minutes. then i put my arms around her and said "what do mean?" no reply. i shook her a bit and i noticed i wasnt feeling her breath or her heart beat which was as soothing as her voice. i truned on the light tried to take her pulse...no pulse.
immediately i called the ambulance and got her to ER, my uncle was on call that night and he took one look at her and said, "she is gone."
i dont want to talk much about what happend later cuz im already crying, but i will say her autopsy report came back, and they found no toxins in her body, all her organs were in perfect shape. she was in perfect health except for the fact that she was dead.
i fell into huge depression came back to USA to my parents house and mourned for about a month, then one night i went for a walk in the park and the wind blew softly in my ear and i swear i heard her laughing. i truned around no one around me. then anotehr breeze came by and i hear "u dont think ull get rid of me that easily do u? hahaha"
it was weird. but anyways im running out of time, but i took the USMLE and med board exams and got certified as a MD in the US, i am currently doing my residency at the hospital in downton, i plan to finish and then join the peace corp or some kind of orgranization where i can give health care to people who neeed it most.
ya i kinda wish i could reiterate the story more but i want to stop here because im feeling kinda sad, but ill check back on this site and i hope someone found my story moving or something idk i just needed to share.
TOO LONG DIDNT READ VERSION: i am in love with the most amazing girl i have seen in my life, and even though she is not with me physicaly i feel close to her as when we were together. and i fall more in love with her each day, and i look forward to the next life where i will spend eternity with her.
