Go to
www.sermonaudio.com and listen to as many Paul Washer sermons as you can. If you are not sure of your own salvation, there is a reason for that. The church today preaches a great deal about cheap grace and the idea that if you meant it when you prayed it then you're good to go. Look at Matt 7
13"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.
14But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.
A Tree and Its Fruit
15"Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves.
16By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles?
17Likewise every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit.
18A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit.
19Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire.
20Thus, by their fruit you will recognize them.
21"Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven.
22Many will say to me on that day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?'
23Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'
If you love your sin, then that is a problem and you are correct to think so. Keep seeking, keep seeking and see if you can find someone to discuss this with who doesn't preach cheap grace that will go through the Scriptures with you until you come to true repentance.