Hi,
I'm having some problems with estimating Jesus' suffering on the cross. When I confront myself with it, I find two reactions in me. One is to feel humbled and to recognize the cross as a sign of love, the other is to be terrified because I perceive in the cross a debt which I can never pay off - but have to try to do so. Some years earlier I also felt that I would have to suffer with Jesus when I watch a video like Passion of the Christ with Mel Gibson or something. But I just can't always "produce" co-suffering like that. I guess it's normal and human, but I also feel a kind of hesitation to suffer with Jesus there, wanting to avoid pain. But then I have moments of pure sympathy in which anything seems proper and then I have an emotional connection to Jesus which feels very soothing.
In the internet I met other christians who felt that nonbelievers would simply have to understand the depth of Jesus pain on the cross. I don't know if I can agree with that. There have been people whose whole life was pretty painful. Not wanting to disrespect our Lord, but Jesus suffered only for a day while others suffer for much longer. I don't believe Jesus wants all this talk of Him suffering SO MUCH in order to impress us. In fact what I tend to think is that Jesus wants to shout into our ears, make use of the cross, make use of my sacrifice, use it as a weapon against sin and guilt and evil, I have made myself weak there to make you strong.
Actually, the movie I cited, Passion of the Christ, even helps there. The way Jesus looks into our eyes in that movie, it's really divine. And Mary's sympathy with her son was so pure and motherly, the whole scene wasn't to make a show like in the theater. And frankly, my desire when I see such crucifixion scenes is to get a cup of water and bring it to Jesus, I become mild and it's my wish to end suffering like this when I encounter it in my life.
That's perhaps the hardest element of the teaching of the cross, that nobody could help Jesus once they nailed Him on the wood. I guess that was a big temptation for our Lord, He could have said a prayer and the Father would have rescued Him immediately, but that would have meant our doom and Jesus didn't want that. He always had to suffer willingly, that's why in the movie Jesus says when He gets whipped, Father, my heart is ready. I see such strength in Jesus, He never stops being the perfect Son of God, even when battered and broken.
I'm having some problems with estimating Jesus' suffering on the cross. When I confront myself with it, I find two reactions in me. One is to feel humbled and to recognize the cross as a sign of love, the other is to be terrified because I perceive in the cross a debt which I can never pay off - but have to try to do so. Some years earlier I also felt that I would have to suffer with Jesus when I watch a video like Passion of the Christ with Mel Gibson or something. But I just can't always "produce" co-suffering like that. I guess it's normal and human, but I also feel a kind of hesitation to suffer with Jesus there, wanting to avoid pain. But then I have moments of pure sympathy in which anything seems proper and then I have an emotional connection to Jesus which feels very soothing.
In the internet I met other christians who felt that nonbelievers would simply have to understand the depth of Jesus pain on the cross. I don't know if I can agree with that. There have been people whose whole life was pretty painful. Not wanting to disrespect our Lord, but Jesus suffered only for a day while others suffer for much longer. I don't believe Jesus wants all this talk of Him suffering SO MUCH in order to impress us. In fact what I tend to think is that Jesus wants to shout into our ears, make use of the cross, make use of my sacrifice, use it as a weapon against sin and guilt and evil, I have made myself weak there to make you strong.
Actually, the movie I cited, Passion of the Christ, even helps there. The way Jesus looks into our eyes in that movie, it's really divine. And Mary's sympathy with her son was so pure and motherly, the whole scene wasn't to make a show like in the theater. And frankly, my desire when I see such crucifixion scenes is to get a cup of water and bring it to Jesus, I become mild and it's my wish to end suffering like this when I encounter it in my life.
That's perhaps the hardest element of the teaching of the cross, that nobody could help Jesus once they nailed Him on the wood. I guess that was a big temptation for our Lord, He could have said a prayer and the Father would have rescued Him immediately, but that would have meant our doom and Jesus didn't want that. He always had to suffer willingly, that's why in the movie Jesus says when He gets whipped, Father, my heart is ready. I see such strength in Jesus, He never stops being the perfect Son of God, even when battered and broken.