Congratulations, I was reading a book called THE CHRIST AMONG US, it says that HOMOSEXUALITY the act is not right, but being HOMOSEXAUL is not a sin as long as youd ont act on it, I will pray that God continues to strengthen you. DO not concern yourself to much with it because this book also says that we are all sinners, my sin is my anger I fight it daily.
I am not making excuses, but I have been trained in the martial arts since I was four, I worked my way through college as a bouncer and I grew up in some of the worst neighbourhoods in Suva. Generally i dont speak much (you wouldnt guess that huh), but i have been known to let my fists speak and have hurt and at one time killed a person (something I dont want to talk about). All those years of learning to be brutal, it is kind of ingrained in my soul.
There is a story called ANDROCLES AND THE LION
.....there is a christian about to be martyred but he picks up a sword...I can identify with that man, it is my struggle and I have lost the battle many times. I try to emulate the peacefulness of christ, but I have been filled with a warrior spirit and pray daily that it will not lead to my downfall.