August 14, 2014 seals that day 5 years ago yesterday, when I became a new creation in Christ Jesus.
Loosing track of time is sometimes far too easy and that is what happened yesterday. So, I am reading my carefully, Spiritually guided, small 4-book Devotionals. One of them was a reminder of what God did for me 5 years ago. It headlined:
DEFEAT: A Step Closer to Victory
This devotional spoke of a time where I was literally defeated, Spiritually, and almost in life. There was just a small amount of hope in me left as I sat down on the ottoman and contemplated my whole life. I saw I was going absolutely no where in life and what I thought everyone around me has a family and I have nothing. Don't get me wrong, I didn't envy anyone but rather I asked why I was still unable to find a man to have a family with. Then a barrage of evil thoughts came through my mind:
"You aren't good enough"
"No one loves you"
"Why bother staying on this earth, what is the point?"
Before anything else could plunge me to making a decision set in stone, I thought of asking God a question.
What is the absolute truth? Nothing in my life is working, I've tried walking through life my way and in my control. Nothing has worked and I'm going around in circles! I'm done, I can't do this anymore. It's all or nothing, I walk in Your ways or I'm done. What are Your ways, what is Your truth and what is love?
Bitterly, I got up and went about the day waiting for His answer. I think it was the next day that everything that I had read in the Bible in my teenage years to adulthood that I had this sudden understanding of God's Word. Not everything of course, but I was certainly overwhelmed with what He had unlocked for me.
It was like as if I were a child again sitting at the foot of a locked door that I could no open myself. Jesus is that door of Hope and I just asked a question and died to myself that day. My past is dead and my sin is not remembered by Him. Jesus opened the door and I went through.
I did lose my life that day and not the way Satan wanted, but God gave me a new life through and in Him.
Biblical Reflections:
The Story of Exodus - I had wandered the desert of the world until I came to Christ.
Genesis 3 - Satan plants doubts and lies.
Ephesians 6:12 - A supernatural fight from the unseen enemy.
John 18:38 - What is Truth?
1 John 4:7-21 - God is Love.
John 10:9-16 & Revelation 3:20 - Jesus Christ is the Door.
