I'm struggling to overcome a lot of doubts, and the Lord is leading me towards Him all the time, and He is winning this for me. During last year, a lot of people attacked me for my faith. For the gifts God has given me, for the changes He has done in me, for the knowledge He has taught me, for the way He speaks to me.
I do mess up a lot, trust me. And I have been deceived in the past, but that's how I know so well today what is of God, because He is so different. Righteous and Holy, not like the enemy who can shine and make you feel good but cannot speak a word of truth, unless it's twisted and perverted.
What they all have in common is one big problem. They doubt the Word of God and the Power of God, and they are relying on their own understanding or human doctrine. And their attacks and accusations all have an underlying meaning: "Did God really say..?"
Yes, He did! Stop listening to Satan! Ask God to open your eyes and ears!
I shouldn't have listened to them, yet I did. But I know Jesus, I know what God has done in my life. I know that my gifts come from Him, and that He has taught me His truth from His Word. So why did I listen to the serpent? Why did I listen to the people who were obviously not led by God's Spirit?
Someone even accused me of casting out Satan by the power of Satan... I mean, have fun repenting! I'm serious, it's such an offense to God, it may have cost them their salvation. Because they aren't attacking me, they are attacking the credibility of God Himself. I would never want to do that. I couldn't, because God would stop me.
None of it makes sense. But it made my head spin. I know that Satan was behind all of it, to get me to doubt and stop listening to God. Yet all I could focus on was the flesh that was speaking the lies. I've spent a lot of time praying for them though, but it's up to them whether they want to repent or not.
God was doing so much yesterday and today. He first convicted me of committing idolatry when listening to man over Him, and by fearing man, and then He helped me repent of it. And I feel like a lot of what was between us have been removed, and I've been filled with His love. I had such a wonderful day today too. Just perfect weather and a lot of comfort! I'm starting to feel very calm.
Yet, I'm still doubting, and it's like a heavy weight on me. I shouldn't be. After all that Jesus has done for me? I'm offending Him by holding on to the lies, because in a sense I'm agreeing with the serpent, and rebelling. And God wants to make me completely steadfast and full of His Truth. I want no blindness, rebellion or darkness in my life. No lies, no false accusations, nothing that is against God's work in our lives.
I know that God will get me through this. And much fruit will come from it, for His Kingdom and for His namesake.
I don't mean to offend anyone, but I wanted to get this all out. This blog is healing me, helping me express my faith instead of hiding it. (Although I'm praying that the Lord will open the eyes of the blind by this)
Praise the Lord! Hopefully I will soon stop doubting.
Father, please increase everything that is of You in me, and remove everything that is of the enemy! In Jesus' name, amen!
PS: I had a great talk with my little sister today. God held up the snow while we took a really wonderful walk in the forest (Yes, God really did that!), and I told her. She hid it, but it made her smile. Anyone who reads this, please pray for her salvation!
I do mess up a lot, trust me. And I have been deceived in the past, but that's how I know so well today what is of God, because He is so different. Righteous and Holy, not like the enemy who can shine and make you feel good but cannot speak a word of truth, unless it's twisted and perverted.
What they all have in common is one big problem. They doubt the Word of God and the Power of God, and they are relying on their own understanding or human doctrine. And their attacks and accusations all have an underlying meaning: "Did God really say..?"
Yes, He did! Stop listening to Satan! Ask God to open your eyes and ears!
I shouldn't have listened to them, yet I did. But I know Jesus, I know what God has done in my life. I know that my gifts come from Him, and that He has taught me His truth from His Word. So why did I listen to the serpent? Why did I listen to the people who were obviously not led by God's Spirit?
Someone even accused me of casting out Satan by the power of Satan... I mean, have fun repenting! I'm serious, it's such an offense to God, it may have cost them their salvation. Because they aren't attacking me, they are attacking the credibility of God Himself. I would never want to do that. I couldn't, because God would stop me.
None of it makes sense. But it made my head spin. I know that Satan was behind all of it, to get me to doubt and stop listening to God. Yet all I could focus on was the flesh that was speaking the lies. I've spent a lot of time praying for them though, but it's up to them whether they want to repent or not.
God was doing so much yesterday and today. He first convicted me of committing idolatry when listening to man over Him, and by fearing man, and then He helped me repent of it. And I feel like a lot of what was between us have been removed, and I've been filled with His love. I had such a wonderful day today too. Just perfect weather and a lot of comfort! I'm starting to feel very calm.
Yet, I'm still doubting, and it's like a heavy weight on me. I shouldn't be. After all that Jesus has done for me? I'm offending Him by holding on to the lies, because in a sense I'm agreeing with the serpent, and rebelling. And God wants to make me completely steadfast and full of His Truth. I want no blindness, rebellion or darkness in my life. No lies, no false accusations, nothing that is against God's work in our lives.
I know that God will get me through this. And much fruit will come from it, for His Kingdom and for His namesake.
I don't mean to offend anyone, but I wanted to get this all out. This blog is healing me, helping me express my faith instead of hiding it. (Although I'm praying that the Lord will open the eyes of the blind by this)
Praise the Lord! Hopefully I will soon stop doubting.
Father, please increase everything that is of You in me, and remove everything that is of the enemy! In Jesus' name, amen!
PS: I had a great talk with my little sister today. God held up the snow while we took a really wonderful walk in the forest (Yes, God really did that!), and I told her. She hid it, but it made her smile. Anyone who reads this, please pray for her salvation!
