My first blog post will be an introduction!
I am 66 years old and have lived the last 33 years with a bipolar diagnosis! In 1985, because of a failing marriage and a bankrupt business, I fell into a clinical depression! Till death do us part and no bankruptcy were strong convictions and now I was facing the possibility of both! My mother-in-law thought the problem was spiritual not medical and she took me in to seek spiritual council and natural remedies. I had three young children and was unable to function! The darkness of the soul lasted 7 months. One day it was like a light turned on and I realized my life was not over and I tried to put my life back together! In 1988 my wife left, and I started to spiral into another deep depression and did not know what to do so I fasted and prayed for two weeks and God showed up. An explanation of that experience will be detailed in my book. The theology of it is controversial but I knew it was God! I was so excited I was now in a manic state. I was institutionalized against my will and forced on medication I did not want! Refusing medication is one of the symptoms of mania! I was released three weeks later. I started council with a local pastor of a small church. He loved me unconditionally and never judged me for my mental illness. After a few weeks my hands started shaking! The doctor gave me a subscription of more medication to stop the shakes! Does this sound like healing to you! I went to my pastor and asked him to watch me because I was going to get off my medication and my family would have been very upset with that decision! I did just fine without the medication! Matthew 11:28 Jesus said, “Come unto me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest!” He did not say bring a pill along! Either what I say is truth or it is not!
I am 66 years old and have lived the last 33 years with a bipolar diagnosis! In 1985, because of a failing marriage and a bankrupt business, I fell into a clinical depression! Till death do us part and no bankruptcy were strong convictions and now I was facing the possibility of both! My mother-in-law thought the problem was spiritual not medical and she took me in to seek spiritual council and natural remedies. I had three young children and was unable to function! The darkness of the soul lasted 7 months. One day it was like a light turned on and I realized my life was not over and I tried to put my life back together! In 1988 my wife left, and I started to spiral into another deep depression and did not know what to do so I fasted and prayed for two weeks and God showed up. An explanation of that experience will be detailed in my book. The theology of it is controversial but I knew it was God! I was so excited I was now in a manic state. I was institutionalized against my will and forced on medication I did not want! Refusing medication is one of the symptoms of mania! I was released three weeks later. I started council with a local pastor of a small church. He loved me unconditionally and never judged me for my mental illness. After a few weeks my hands started shaking! The doctor gave me a subscription of more medication to stop the shakes! Does this sound like healing to you! I went to my pastor and asked him to watch me because I was going to get off my medication and my family would have been very upset with that decision! I did just fine without the medication! Matthew 11:28 Jesus said, “Come unto me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest!” He did not say bring a pill along! Either what I say is truth or it is not!
