My First Blog Entry

I am trying to grow closer in my relationship with Jesus. I have been told by him to pray for my torturers. That has been very hard for me but Jesus has been gentle with me and expressed that even though it is hard, it will help heal my heart from my wounds. Jesus prays with me at night when I...

I may be in the hospital another week and a half. I miss my family and I miss being at home but I know I have to get better. I wanted to pray that soon I can be off medications and that soon I can no longer have to go to the hospital so often. It has been hard for me after the ritual abuse and I...

Today I am meditating on Mother Mary and her healing kindness. I was thinking about her gentleness and goodness and it helped me a lot. Jesus mother is beautiful and I am drawn to thinking about her. I have been praying to Mary and she has let me know I need to pray for my torturers daily to...

I had some recall today about my torture. I remembered one of my torturer's names. His name is Micah. I had blocked him out my mind. He was very cruel to me and used tools on me. He hurt me alot. I am grateful to have this site to come to, to heal from my torture. He hurt me alot and made me...

My necklace came in the mail today and I am very glad about that. I love ordering items and waiting for them to come in the mail. I am excited about having my necklace again. I had lost it.

I am a Highly Sensitive Christian. I am a very sensitive person and am very sensitive to pain and to sensory stimuli. I have been reading about Highly Sensitive Christians and it has helped me alot.I have been understanding that God can be gentle with me because I am also gentle. I have been...

Happy Mothers Day to all mothers here. Blessings for you and your children. Today will be a quiet day for me. I brought a card for my mother and grandmother and we are just going to have a dinner later today.

I have been enjoying writing Christian fiction. I feel it will help me heal. I hope it helps others too. I wanted to pray that fiction not be shown in such a violent way anymore but that it be Godly and help people to see their true selves better and not feel shame. That fiction will show people...

I have a passion for crystals and herbs. I used to be Pagan and loved alot of things about it. I am now a Christian and I have a love for beautiful crystals and herbs. I have learned now to dedicate my stones and herbs to Jesus Christ and that they can be used to glorify God. I also love to read...

I will be writing often in Writers Guild. God told me it is good for my healing. I am going to write mostly realistic fiction and poetry. I feel it will help me heal from my ritual abuse. I love writing about people who have overcome severe trauma and their healing. I write alot about ritual...

Today I prayed to God about protection from him. He helped me see that my stories will help me heal from my ritual abuse and that I can use my stories instead of being on an avatar site. God let me know this site is the best site for me and that I will be here my whole life and that I can share...

Today I was feeling unprotected some. I always worry about my kidnapper hurting me again. I don't think she will but I at times have nightmares which make me feel she will hurt me again. Please pray for my protection. Thank you.

I am no longer on Second Life. It was a very evil site. I wish it the best but I feel it will not heal for a very long time There was alot of cruelty on the site and alot of Satanism. I am trying to find creative ways to be safe and trusting Jesus to find a good place for me. I am no longer part...

There is an Anglican church in Second Life that needs healing. The woman who owns it is a Satanist and and she deceived me. I pray for her healing and the healing of the Anglican church. That it will one day be a site that helps people heal and have love in their hearts. Please pray for her and...

There is a large Satanist community in Second Life. That is how I met the woman who kidnapped me. She was a Satanist. I feel bad for these people who are worshiping the Devil. I know they are lost. I no longer am in the Second Life community because too much evil happened to me because of that...

I went on a trip with my family to Florida for the week. My chronic pain started acting up so I was not able to have a good time on the trip. Please pray that this week goes better for me and that I am able to heal. Thank you.

This Saturday I will be going on a trip to Florida with my family. Please pray that it goes well. Thank you. I am a bit nervous about the trip because of my anxiety around people.

I feel having BPD has hurt me alot in my life and caused alot of suffering for me. I have been treated some for BPD and it helped me alot to know I am acceptable and good. I also understand now that I dont have to be perfect to be loved. I just wanted to ask for prayer that God continue to heal...

I feel I was demon possessed when I was younger. I feel I have healed from it. I feel God has helped cleanse me and heal me over time. It feels very good to be healed by God and to know he still loves me.

Inworldz is another avatar site I was on where there were problems. There were people practicing demonic sacrificial roleplay on the site. There were avatars named evil things. There was a dark roleplay fantasy section where people could be hurt in. Someone beheaded my avatar when I was there. I...