Jesus And Me

I am trying to grow closer in my relationship with Jesus. I have been told by him to pray for my torturers. That has been very hard for me but Jesus has been gentle with me and expressed that even though it is hard, it will help heal my heart from my wounds. Jesus prays with me at night when I go to bed for healing my torturers. Sometimes I cry because my soul hurts because of how badly they treated me, but Jesus always comforts me. Jesus is my best friend and the one who makes me feel safe. I have been thinking of killing myself but he makes me see it is not good to kill myself. Jesus has been helping me look at different herbs to help with my depression. I am trying to do my best at healing from ritual abuse. I am glad to have friendship with Jesus and glad to know he cares for me.