yes atheism is an option for some types of souls. I wish I could take the easy road out of this world, I really do. the second thing most appealing to me besides God is death and I would like nothing more than to not exist if I can't exist in love. if death is greater than love then let me be what i am already. I don't have ambitions that are truly worth existing over. I don't want friends because I can't relate to them enough. if I was dead I would have no need. I can't expect myself to exist just because my family thinks it is a good idea to live. my desires are often destructive to myself or they are unworthy of me, but certainly I think desire is one of my favorite things. but some types of souls do okay being atheist, just not those who crave after more and can't realize it in specific ways. some atheist are good at realizing God even though they outwardly don't think he is a thing. for me, I don't have any reason to cultivate myself without God.
i'm not into all the games humans seem to be into, I really could care less about a shallow atheistic mindset of existing in this world. I don't want to love temporal things, why should I love those like me if so many other living things die just because they are not as similar as me? if we are all creatures and we perish then love should perish, everything should die. I can't love this universe or myself, I have no reason to. going on, near automatic, with children that fear certain words... I can't express enough in me the angels wearing devils mask that I have that just don't care about anything at all, because if there is nothing to love me and nothing for me to love, then why should I be? see how kind I am? I don't choose to hurt others or destroy them, I will not choose for another. but as for me, if God is not, then neither should I be.
i want destruction, i want death, if that is what i can have, but if you, God, are real, then you better fix me, because I don't like being this human filth and the little games they play do not warm my heart. there is not enough of a connection with others for me to ever wish to keep on going at this. I love my peoples, I love your humans, but i don't wanna put up with all this [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] that i don't want for no reason. the empty outweighs the good in an atheistic mindset, it is not compatible with my own soul.
I have loved humans enough in this world, 29 years is enough, I need not your non-sense struggles of keeping alive over nothing. your petty and evil 1 meal is not enough for me though it satisfy you because you are hungry. it will never satisfy me.
and what do atheists say to it? "I did not make up the rules, I can't help that you can't put up with the hard and cold facts of reality" yeah because they are in a maze of their own just as I am in mine. you try to be tough having nothing at all in the bigger picture but I got nothing to prove, i'm all about the ultimate and i'm thankful I don't feel the need to kill people out of boredom. cause if there is no God then tell me why I should be good? I would rather destroy myself, because it seems better to me.
so God I don't have anything in this world and you know me and what i want is you, the torture of even a short creature life is a blot on perfection of what should be. it is distasteful for me to exist in such a state. if I can't have equality with God then I want destruction. I either have no reason to exist or I have every reason to exist. I lean towards God, though i walk around blind time to time. but keep your filth away from me.
your meaningless, soulless manner of being in this world is the very thing that makes me sick and wanting to end it all and that is my reaction to the atheist who really thinks life is worth living without eternal love and relationship to God. because as I am, God gives meaning to everything to me and nothing could replace the few glimmers of God, without God I hate existing.
but I see God in people often enough in one way or another and it is only the qualities of God in something that makes me love it.
i'm not into all the games humans seem to be into, I really could care less about a shallow atheistic mindset of existing in this world. I don't want to love temporal things, why should I love those like me if so many other living things die just because they are not as similar as me? if we are all creatures and we perish then love should perish, everything should die. I can't love this universe or myself, I have no reason to. going on, near automatic, with children that fear certain words... I can't express enough in me the angels wearing devils mask that I have that just don't care about anything at all, because if there is nothing to love me and nothing for me to love, then why should I be? see how kind I am? I don't choose to hurt others or destroy them, I will not choose for another. but as for me, if God is not, then neither should I be.
i want destruction, i want death, if that is what i can have, but if you, God, are real, then you better fix me, because I don't like being this human filth and the little games they play do not warm my heart. there is not enough of a connection with others for me to ever wish to keep on going at this. I love my peoples, I love your humans, but i don't wanna put up with all this [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] that i don't want for no reason. the empty outweighs the good in an atheistic mindset, it is not compatible with my own soul.
I have loved humans enough in this world, 29 years is enough, I need not your non-sense struggles of keeping alive over nothing. your petty and evil 1 meal is not enough for me though it satisfy you because you are hungry. it will never satisfy me.
and what do atheists say to it? "I did not make up the rules, I can't help that you can't put up with the hard and cold facts of reality" yeah because they are in a maze of their own just as I am in mine. you try to be tough having nothing at all in the bigger picture but I got nothing to prove, i'm all about the ultimate and i'm thankful I don't feel the need to kill people out of boredom. cause if there is no God then tell me why I should be good? I would rather destroy myself, because it seems better to me.
so God I don't have anything in this world and you know me and what i want is you, the torture of even a short creature life is a blot on perfection of what should be. it is distasteful for me to exist in such a state. if I can't have equality with God then I want destruction. I either have no reason to exist or I have every reason to exist. I lean towards God, though i walk around blind time to time. but keep your filth away from me.
your meaningless, soulless manner of being in this world is the very thing that makes me sick and wanting to end it all and that is my reaction to the atheist who really thinks life is worth living without eternal love and relationship to God. because as I am, God gives meaning to everything to me and nothing could replace the few glimmers of God, without God I hate existing.
but I see God in people often enough in one way or another and it is only the qualities of God in something that makes me love it.
