Dear Schizophrenic brother or sister, precious heart, because I have experienced it myself, I know the confusion and the pain that you have been through. Whether you think you are far greater than you are, or far worse, I assure you there is a Savior. You are not that Savior, nor are you beyond saving. I pray that there is a part of you that can honestly see through the cloud of confusion. The type of schizophrenia that I am familiar with, is the type that believes lies. Fearful soul, it will be okay. There is a God that sees and knows all of your sins, and is willing to forgive. This forgiveness extended does not overlook what you have done or what you have thought that was sinful, but instead places all sinful thoughts and actions upon the sinless God-man Jesus Christ as He died on a roman cross two thousand years ago for all who believe. This, though miraculous, and kinda far out, is the core of reality, and those who reject it will find misery once their drugs have burned out and their façade of worldly satisfaction proves false. ( I am not saying to stop taking meds. I take meds and they help, but they are NOT my salvation) Do you trust in people to save you? They will die eventually, they will prove themselves imperfect. What you need is a perfect Savior, and only the God man is, Jesus Christ the righteous. Do you trust in wealth to make you secure, to fulfill every pleasure? We lay it all possessions down when we step past the door of death into eternity, and I promise eternity is not empty nothingness, and I promise eternity is not reincarnation. It is either all wonderful, creation-perfection, living in close fellowship with our very good Creator, or it is separation from Him in torment. But be at ease, right now, in this moment, you have a choice. Christ says in Revelation, Behold I stand at the door and knock and any man who hears My voice and opens the door, I will come into him and dine with him and he with Me. There is no sin, no sin, no sin that is too great. The blood of Jesus is so powerful that I believe that it set Jeffrey Daumer free from sin before he died in prison. Yes, Christs blood will set even the worst of all sinners free. In Jeremiah, the bible says that the human heart is "deceitful and desperately wicked." Some people are more aware of how awful their heart is. Some are less aware. Some people display their awful heart through their actions. Some people it is more subtle. We are all selfish. And we all have had unbelief. We all, by our actions have denied our Creator, and by so doing, have called ourselves God, which is pride, which is the root of all sin. Which deserves eternal hell. Even the apostle Paul called himself the chief of all sinners. Can you see? This is why we desperately need our God to save us. Christ is the only man who has ever lived that is truly righteous. And the miracle is, that if we put our faith in Him, that He is fully God and fully man, that He died for our sins and rose again on the third day, conquering sin and death, then we are saved. Another part to this beautiful reality is, that if we do this, we have Christs imputed righteousness placed upon us. Imputed means to attribute or ascribe. He who knew no sin became sin for us so that we might become the righteousness of God. Gods perfect justice is fully satisfied simultaneously as He displays His perfect mercy and love. (see Romans 3:21-26). We are not perfect, but God looks at us and sees Christ instead of our sin. We are justified in His sight. there is no greater love than this that a man lay down His life for His friends.--John 15:13 And that is what you are, if you put your faith in Christ, you are His friend. The bible also refers to Him as our Shepherd, and we are His beloved sheep that He keeps a watchful loving eye over. He holds the lambs in His arms. Oh, dear one, read Isaiah 53. It is a prophecy undeniably about Christ written 700 years before His birth. If I know schizophrenia, or atleast the type that I am familiar with, your mind is restless, seeking satisfaction. Even if it is, saving the world from the Russians, or getting away from the unreal cameras that are in your apartment (there are no cameras in your apartment, that is a lie). Even if it is to solve the world's energy crisis somehow through your thinking and/or building, or if you think you are Buddha, or the great one, or Jesus, or if you think you are the devil himself, these are all lies. There, now rest in the truth of Jesus Christ. The only source of true rest. I have schizophrenia. I have gone to the extremes of thinking I am the enlightened savior of the world to thinking I am some evil witch woman cursed in the bible (which was a total misinterpretation of Scripture). But I tell you, with the help of Gods word, my bible counselor, and folks from my church that love me and are helping me see the truth and practice it, I am learning how to have a sane mind that I trust control to my sovereign and good God. If you have it in your head, that people can hear your thoughts, or you can hear other peoples thoughts, I invite you to know and believe through the power of the Spirit of God, that the word of God is 100% true from Genesis to Revelation, and that it teaches in Scripture that people cant hear other peoples thoughts. In 1 Corinthians 2:11 it says in the NASB Who among men can know the thoughts of a man except the spirit of the man within him, even so, the thoughts of God, no one knows except the Spirit of God. No one can know your thoughts. For me, this truth was such a blessing. I can trust Gods word as truth and rest. I can rest that my soul is safe and completely loved by the most powerful being in the universe who is in complete control of all circumstances of life, and I can trust that He works all things for the good to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28). And I can trust that He is worthy to be praised and I am not and you are not. That He is God and I am not and you are not. That I am not so awful that I am beyond salvation, but despite my awfulness, Christ came to die for sinners. For salvation cannot be earned. It is completely His work. By grace you are saved, through faith, not by works it is a gift of God so that no one may boast.--Ephesians 2:8 Rest. Rest your soul. Find the rest that you have been looking for for so long. You cannot save yourself. Only He can save you. Surrender yourself to Him. Believe on Him. John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever believes in Him, shall not perish but have everlasting life. I still struggle with the lies of schizophrenia sometimes, so it is a fight to believe the truth at times. But the more I practice truth, the more natural it becomes. But we MUST FIGHT THE LIES. SATAN IS THE AUTHOR OF CONFUSION AND THE FATHER OF LIES. and 2 Timothy 1:7 "For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind." God is good all the time. He is good toward you. Remember, He is standing at the door, knocking. Read psalm 103 if you get the chance, I am sure a bible is not too far away. He says, Come to me all who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest, for My yoke is easy and My burden light.--Matthew 11:28 Dont let the world deceive you
He also said I am the way, the truth, and the life, no one comes unto the Father except through Me .--John 14:6 There is no other way to be saved. God bless you. May you come to know the truth that will set you free. Dont expect to be healed all at once, though, it is possible for God to do this. I still take meds, and I have friends that still take meds, but by God's grace, we are able to practice believing and trusting Christ to liberate us from these lies. The word of God is more powerful than any two edged sword. And we are to take captive our thoughts to the obedience of Christ. --2 Corinthians 10:5 And we are to discipline our minds to think on truth. "And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. " --Phillipians 4:8. I love you. May you overcome by the blood of the Lamb. I promise, it is more powerful than anything you are dealing with right now.