I have struggled with homosexuality since I was 14 years old.....I'm 25 now, that's 11 years of depression, anger, frustration, confustion, and being hurt. I've come to a point as a christian where I will be finding myself without accountability because my accountability partner is moving. I have a friend who is 500 miles away and a friend who lives 2 miles away.....they both know my struggle, but the one who lives the closest to me is still a little freaked out about it and the one that I can talk to is to far away to meet with and it's hard to get together on the phone. I have another friend, well now x-friend who I suspect has the same struggle as I do, but when questioned he denied it and the reason we are x-friends now is still a mystery to me because he left me a voicemail telling me he was "terminateing our friendship" without any explanation so I can only suspect he feared that he was going to give in or make a move that he would regret.
I'm so confused and hurt at this point that I am afraid to trust anyone. My relationship with God hasn't been there....I haven't been able to pray, read, or attend church mostly because of pride and past hurts that I just don't know how to let go of. I guess I'm posting here because I am at the end of my rope, I have no idea which direction to turn anymore and I can feel myself slipping back into a depression and this time I just don't know if I'm going to make it through it.
Dying inside,
Bill
I'm so confused and hurt at this point that I am afraid to trust anyone. My relationship with God hasn't been there....I haven't been able to pray, read, or attend church mostly because of pride and past hurts that I just don't know how to let go of. I guess I'm posting here because I am at the end of my rope, I have no idea which direction to turn anymore and I can feel myself slipping back into a depression and this time I just don't know if I'm going to make it through it.
Dying inside,
Bill