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[madison1101]

Well, I had a really interesting and rough therapy session this afternoon, and talked about my incessant need for love and attention as it is connected to my abandonment issues. I worked on it a lot, processing, being honest about myself, and feeling those wonderful feelings that go with it. It is embarassing to admit I am so needy.

So, when I got home, I called my sponsor to let her know what is going on with me, and I got hit in the gut with the news that she sold her house, which I knew she was trying to do, and she asked me to get a new sponsor. UGH!!!!!!! A year ago, I was let go by a sponsor, and could not find a sponsor. So, I burst into tears after I got off the phone. I was terrified that I would not be able to find someone.

Well, this week at the meeting I go to in the morning a woman gave me her number. She then asked me this morning why I had not called her. So, I called her after I got off the phone with my sponsor and left a message. She called me back and we got to talking about my recovery and my issues. She thinks I am too hard on myself and that I need to say more positive stuff about myself. So, I asked her if she would be willing to sponsor me, and she agreed. She insisted that I do three things. 1. I don't relapse again. 2. I never lie to her. 3. I share at every meeting and I stop beating myself up when I share and share something positive about myself.

I was afraid I would not be able to find a new sponsor because it took me six months to find the one I just lost. God put my new sponsor in my life at just the right time.

I am shaking and must get moving on my housework right now.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[BlessEwe]

Amen sobriety sista!
I was freaking out last week studying for my state board test, and went into my room and screamed to myself..God I can not do this, I am old..dumb.. blah blah blah I said to God if you are leading me to this I need your help, I just can not do this it is way too hard.
I then stopped for the day and turned on the t.v. Well the show on the t.v. was a motivation speaker. He was going on and on about our thoughts and how they will bring us down so fast. Is that God or what..LOL

He went on to say if we tell ourselves we will fail, we most likely will.

If we allow our brains to tell us we are old, dumb, we can not do it, we are ugly, fat, life is too hard and I am going to get loaded. All of the garbage we do, we are most likely going to be/do that to yourself.

So again Amen that you might have found the perfect sponsor! See how God works.. lol cracks me up, and at this time we both needed to hear it. Thank you my beautiful Jesus!

 

[madison1101]

Amen sobriety sista!
I was freaking out last week studying for my state board test, and went into my room and screamed to myself..God I can not do this, I am old..dumb.. blah blah blah I said to God if you are leading me to this I need your help, I just can not do this it is way too hard.
I then stopped for the day and turned on the t.v. Well the show on the t.v. was a motivation speaker. He was going on and on about our thoughts and how they will bring us down so fast. Is that God or what..LOL

He went on to say if we tell ourselves we will fail, we most likely will.

If we allow our brains to tell us we are old, dumb, we can not do it, we are ugly, fat, life is too hard and I am going to get loaded. All of the garbage we do, we are most likely going to be/do that to yourself.

So again Amen that you might have found the perfect sponsor! See how God works.. lol cracks me up, and at this time we both needed to hear it. Thank you my beautiful Jesus!

I have to tell you about when I took my state licensing exam. I had postponed it once due to not being able to prepare for it adequately, so when I finally was scheduled to take it, the date came up on me so fast, and I had so many other things distracting me, I figured I would reschedule it again. Well, I called and learned that I could not reschedule it on the date I was calling because it was too close to the day I was scheduled. Had I called the day before, it would have been no problem. So, I went into panic mode at first, thinking I was either going to throw away the money for the exam, and just not take it that day, OR take it and fail it and have to retake it and spend all that money again. I studied, went to take it, and passed it by 3 points. Praise Jesus. God was so good.

I am not sure what field your exam is in. Mine was social work. It was almost all scenarios and the answers were mostly common sense stuff I learned in my practicums and methods classes. I had attended a prep class where I learned that they always have a question about borderline personality on the social work exams, and a certain number of medication questions.

Oh, I took the exam in 2006, when I was 49, so I was not much younger than you are now.

When are you scheduled? Let me know, so I can pray for you.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[BlessEwe]

I just did the exam June 13th , last Sat. I still have many hours of internship, and a oral exam..yikes.. How many hours and exams did you have?

 

[madison1101]

I just did the exam June 13th , last Sat. I still have many hours of internship, and a oral exam..yikes.. How many hours and exams did you have?

My internships were 180 hours over two school years. The bad thing was I was not permitted to take any of my internship hours over the summer, and being a teacher, I have summers off. So, I taught all day, then did two classes on campus each week, two nights at internship all week, then a weekend day of internship, plus internship over holiday break between semesters. I practically had a breakdown. I stayed sober but gained a ton of weight.

Hope you did well.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[BlessEwe]

Ok get this... you can tell a bunch of recovering obsessive addicts have made the rules of 6000 hours internship, written, and oral exam to receive the full certificate... LOL
I think I may be about 100 years old when I finish.

 

[madison1101]

Ok get this... you can tell a bunch of recovering obsessive addicts have made the rules of 6000 hours internship, written, and oral exam to receive the full certificate... LOL
I think I may be about 100 years old when I finish.

Is this for a CAC? I considered going for that on top of my MSW, but do not work full time in a recovery setting, which would be required.

Good luck. God will see you to the end if it is his will.

Trish

 

[BlessEwe]

Its a universal credential. Here>>>
CAADAC - Intl/National Affiliates

You would do so well being a MSW and a AOD, This combination is in high demand.
But it would require you to work in the recovery field to get your internship hours.
I am going slow right now, but will look for a job in Aug. after my trip to Alaska.

 

[madison1101]

Its a universal credential. Here>>>
CAADAC - Intl/National Affiliates

You would do so well being a MSW and a AOD, This combination is in high demand.
But it would require you to work in the recovery field to get your internship hours.
I am going slow right now, but will look for a job in Aug. after my trip to Alaska.

I would love to work in the field in some capacity on a full time basis. I work part time in a psych hospital doing group and recreational therapy. I love working on the dual diagnosis unit the most. Unfortunately, I can't switch careers at this time, as it would mean a huge pay cut.

I am trusting the Lord that I will work what I am supposed to work when I am supposed to work it.

Trish