I struggle a lot with my faith because I often feel like I'm not a good enough Christian. I'm a very sensual person when it comes to art, writing, etc. and I keep hearing from very conservative people that anything that brings you joy outside of Jesus, or anything that brings you earthly pleasure, is to be avoided. Is this true?
I try to regulate my hobbies/interests so that they don't get in the way of my spiritual life, but since I'm so socially anxious and prefer solitude, it would be hard for me to give them up altogether (my main hobbies are animation, drawing, fanfiction, writing, etc., just for relaxation/fun)
Please know that i'm not a "troll" - I blame my OCD for these irrational fears mostly, but of course I've also been told not to trust my own heart/mind, so I have no idea what to believe. I don't know if I'm a bad Christian or not because I sometimes would rather play video games than read the Bible... I know I'm only human but when I see people who spend all their time praising God, studying the Bible, and going on mission trips I feel like there's no way I could be saved like them.
(Please don't tell me to just stop having hobbies, that would make me very sad)
I try to regulate my hobbies/interests so that they don't get in the way of my spiritual life, but since I'm so socially anxious and prefer solitude, it would be hard for me to give them up altogether (my main hobbies are animation, drawing, fanfiction, writing, etc., just for relaxation/fun)
Please know that i'm not a "troll" - I blame my OCD for these irrational fears mostly, but of course I've also been told not to trust my own heart/mind, so I have no idea what to believe. I don't know if I'm a bad Christian or not because I sometimes would rather play video games than read the Bible... I know I'm only human but when I see people who spend all their time praising God, studying the Bible, and going on mission trips I feel like there's no way I could be saved like them.
(Please don't tell me to just stop having hobbies, that would make me very sad)