Work is being affected.

[CraftyTurtle]

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow with my employer's Occupational health doctor.
I've missed work due to moods and lack of sleep, and I've been called out on it. My annual performance evaluation was poor.
It's just all too hard right now. I am tired of life. Not tired of living, just tired of all the things a person has to do .... job, home, family, community, etc. Why is there so much I need to have in my head at any one time? It's exhausting. Oh wouldn't it be nice to be in an institution where my meals are provided, my laundry done, nobody expects anything of me, and I don't have to answer difficult questions or remember things. Sigh. I think I'll have to wait 40 years or so, and live in an aged-care home.

...or be a domestic cat. That would be a nice life.

 

[amymine712]

I am sorry you are having a difficult time right now. I am praying for you. I went through ECT treatments awhile back and they helped me. Plus I eat healthy, exercise and do a lot of talking to God/reading the bible. I was so bad that I am disabled now but I have been stable since the ECTs. I would like to go back to work but I don't know if I would be able to handle the added stress. I am the main caregiver in my family plus handle all the household expenses. Which is stressful.

 

[Loven God]

Wish you were doing better but I get what you are saying . It would be nice to get way from life for a while . I will be praying for you .

 

[amymine712]

How are you doing? You have been in my thoughts and prayers a lot today.

 

[CraftyTurtle]

Thank-you so much for your prayers and kind words. I had an interesting doctor's appointment - it was over an hour! When do you ever get to see a doctor for more than 5 minutes?
So anyway, this guy asked a lot of questions, tested things - my hands shake, and I have "brisk" reflexes. He is going to contact my GP, my psychiatrist, and the sleep specialist.

I found comfort in him saying that I'm not lazy. I'm not making this up. (You can't fake results of blood tests, or reflexes)

You probably all have experienced people (even medical professionals) who think you are faking, or lazy, or undisciplined or whatever. It is so nice to be believed!

The bad news is he doesn't know exactly what I have. Hyperthyroidism, chronic fatigue, etc - were all mentioned. I have symptoms ranging across the board, and some which seem to conflict!

This could take a while. Grrrrr. I am really glad someone is helping me, but I wish it didn't have to take so long.

I see more tests in my future..... he'll no doubt recommend to my GP.

It'd be nice to have Dr House on my case, but I wouldn't want have to be as sick as a patient usually is, in order to get him.

Positive thinking, ... struggling day by day in the mean time.

 

[amymine712]

I am glad you have someone on your side in this. I will keep you in my prayers.

 

[Loven God]

Happy to know you are getting some help . Praying they will find out what is wrong to be able to help you .

 

[quietpraiyze]