Wild rollercoaster.

[berry2000]

Um now I'm hypomanic. Always happens swing from one extreme to the other. But it feels good...for a change. Everything seems as it should be, I am content, confident, happy, w/ energy. Just yesterday I was at the end of my rope, depressesed, frustrated, everything in my life seemed wrong. Very odd. Very odd to live like this. But at the moment I"m just thankful to not be hurting and struggling for a moment.

 

[PrairieGurl]

Oh Berry...can I relate!!! I am SO thankful that I am "stable" at this moment! It has been SO long...I truely forgot what it was like, how it felt! I must say...I DO LIKE IT!!!

Of course I have not worked since March 2006, so I do not have the same responsabilitis as I did. (my job is high stress multy tasking and dealing with ill people who are not themselves, as in not very happy) I'm NOT stressed at home (which makes such a major difference) and I can take my time with the things that have to be done around and with the house!

I know that this is a "roller coaster" illness...so I milk every good day for EVERYTHING it's worth!

Glad your having a good day

 

[spdnet75]

Berry, any form of Mania, is not good for you. You may feel cool as a cucumber today, but you may crash ten minutes from now.

You should be in contact with your doctor and work with this person, honestly, if you want to experience real results.

Please, keep us up to date on your feelings. We're all well versed in what is and is not right. (I am reminded, on a regular basis, when I'm not quite right.)

Stephen

 

[angelkiss]

What spdnet said. I have learned that when I get thrown in "manic mode" as I call it, I know that "crash" is somewhere lurking and ready to strike full force. It hits and runs me over before I realize it.
Although "manic mode" feels great at the time, take caution and let your doc know what you are experiencing.
I'll be praying for ya sweetie!
's and es!!

 

[walshclan]

Take care Berry and go to your Pdoc as some of the others are saying here. In the meantime enjoy your hypomania!!

 

[berry2000]

Still a bit hypomanic although things are slowing down some. I can't complain I'm happy with my current state. I am functioning, going to work, keeping house all the things that need doing.

 

[Mitsy]

Praise God I'll pray you don't crash

 

[spdnet75]

Just checkin' in to say Hi, Berry. I hope that you are doing well and will keep you and your's in my thoughts.

Stephen

 

[rushingwind62]

Um now I'm hypomanic. Always happens swing from one extreme to the other. But it feels good...for a change. Everything seems as it should be, I am content, confident, happy, w/ energy. Just yesterday I was at the end of my rope, depressesed, frustrated, everything in my life seemed wrong. Very odd. Very odd to live like this. But at the moment I"m just thankful to not be hurting and struggling for a moment.

it sounds like you are having major swings as of yet and that is not good. Because if you can still go manic then you can crash hard. That is what Bipolars do when not medicated or improperly medicated. Sometimes it takes time to get on the right meds to where you swings are more controlled.

I suggest you keep talking to your therapist and your psychatrist and let them know all that is going on. You willalways hav ups and downs but they can be controlled so they aren't as severe. It took me three years to get on ALL the right meds to benefit me the most....God Bless You and EVERYONE!!!

 

[berry2000]

Falling down down down. I know the reason. Atleast this time I have a reason. But I feel myself falling, and the negative thinking coming back. Sunday I spoke w/ my mother she said my brother and his wife (w/ 3 kids) are having problems. Monday I spoke w/ my uncle and grandma and they said my brother is getting a divorce. Today I spoke w/ my brother and he said he is filing the divorce papers today. I AM SO SAD ABOUT ALL THIS. I hurt for him, for his wife, for his kids. He is not a christian and says he is just being selfish. He is unhappy and he wants a divorce. He doesn't want to try and work it out at all. Anyways I am so sad, I've cried 3 times now and i feel like crying spordaically throught the day. I find it hard to concentrate at work. Then I become agitated and anxious. So I took a Xanax then I became exhausted, detached from myself but still overwhelmed w/ sadness. Crashing, i know what it feels like, don't care about anything, lost in my own little world of emotions, just crashing.

 

[walshclan]

Oh Berry:

I am so sorry about your brother. I am praying about the whole situation. I am praying for him and that the marriage is mended and that the kids are alright and that cooler heads prevail.

You really are on a rollercoaster. I've only been on a week and you've been down and up and now down. Some of that is situational but you should really see your pdoc. Can you get an appt this week or next week at the latest? Your meds should be adjusted girl. Speaking from one who's been there and doesn't like to rock the boat either... you have to be your own advocate. Get in there and fight for your right to be stable.

Connie

 

[rushingwind62]

Falling down down down. I know the reason. Atleast this time I have a reason. But I feel myself falling, and the negative thinking coming back. Sunday I spoke w/ my mother she said my brother and his wife (w/ 3 kids) are having problems. Monday I spoke w/ my uncle and grandma and they said my brother is getting a divorce. Today I spoke w/ my brother and he said he is filing the divorce papers today. I AM SO SAD ABOUT ALL THIS. I hurt for him, for his wife, for his kids. He is not a christian and says he is just being selfish. He is unhappy and he wants a divorce. He doesn't want to try and work it out at all. Anyways I am so sad, I've cried 3 times now and i feel like crying spordaically throught the day. I find it hard to concentrate at work. Then I become agitated and anxious. So I took a Xanax then I became exhausted, detached from myself but still overwhelmed w/ sadness. Crashing, i know what it feels like, don't care about anything, lost in my own little world of emotions, just crashing.

it is natural to feel down over these things, but you must realize these things are out of your control. Anyone would feel sad and down. So it is okay to feel what you are feeling. But don't let it get you so far down that you can't get back up. I know that is easier said than done....Get out today, go for a walk and place it and those involved in God's hands. Your concern right now at this point in your life should be you. I know that may seem selfish, but sometimes we need to focus on our well being so we can be there later for our loved ones and friends....hang in there sis....God Bless YOU....Rush

 

[berry2000]

I felt really down for 2 days and then I was okay. But it was a different kind of down. It wasn't a depression it was sadness. With all you all's help I was able to sort out the difference. Sadness about a situation, and depression two different things. And either way I'm okay now. It just took me by suprise and is so sad. Before though I have let a sitation like this thrust me into a deep dark depression. So I understand my fear and confusion. But I think my meds are right so I just reacted like a "normal" person to the news this time.

 

[PrairieGurl]

I felt really down for 2 days and then I was okay. But it was a different kind of down. It wasn't a depression it was sadness. With all you all's help I was able to sort out the difference. Sadness about a situation, and depression two different things. And either way I'm okay now. It just took me by suprise and is so sad. Before though I have let a sitation like this thrust me into a deep dark depression. So I understand my fear and confusion. But I think my meds are right so I just reacted like a "normal" person to the news this time.

Hey ya Berry

Glad to hear you're doing okay

I know what it's like to be taken by surprise over "mood confussion" or not know what I'm experiencing..."normal life" or chemical imbalance "thingie" Since not abusing substances...I'm shocked with how I react & feel about different things that happen in my life now. I had numbed my thoughts and feelings for so long...it was a new experience. I now have to work at "sorting out" the everyday issues and the disease issues. Sometimes that's difficult.

Wendy

 

[rushingwind62]

I felt really down for 2 days and then I was okay. But it was a different kind of down. It wasn't a depression it was sadness. With all you all's help I was able to sort out the difference. Sadness about a situation, and depression two different things. And either way I'm okay now. It just took me by suprise and is so sad. Before though I have let a sitation like this thrust me into a deep dark depression. So I understand my fear and confusion. But I think my meds are right so I just reacted like a "normal" person to the news this time.

Glad to hear you are okay now. It takes time to recognize all the triggers of bp. Sadness can definetly be a trigger. But you did good in recognizing the trigger and realizing it was a justified feeling. Not much anyone could do to change that feeling. But that will not always be the case. There will be many triggers you will be able to change. You are learning to cope with things in a new way. And that is why therapy is so vital for us bp's in the beginning. Counsolers help us to look at all options and help us to cope with things in a new way. Be paitient, berry. You have a lot to learn about your bp , life, and yourself. But now that you are on meds, you'll be able to think more clearly. Stay on your meds, stay in counseling, and most of all relax. Everything is going to be okay.... ....God Bless you.....Rush