First, I feel I should establish what I mean when I say "wife." I am disabled and receive SSI, and my "wife" is disabled but works very limited hours (16 ½ hours per week). If we were to get legally married, her income would count as my income and my SSI would almost disappear. We would be in a terrible financial situation (worse than we are right now, waiting for her Disability approval... God willing it is soon as she's been trying for about 5 years now). This is commonly known as the "marriage penalty." People that work at Social Security know about it and express anger towards it, even as far as someone writing an opinion piece on the Social Security website. Despite all of this, we consider ourselves "married" in God's eyes, and that is what's most important. We'd be legally married if not for the marriage penalty.
Now that lengthy intro is out of the way... I come here with a heavy and frustrated heart. My wife wants a manual transmission car whenever we could actually afford one. She knows how to drive manual and I do not. She is beyond "adamant" about it, even crying about it once. We had yet another argument about it an hour ago. I say that learning it would be an extra and unwanted source of stress. I'm not that old (40 and my wife is 37) but I put things into a different perspective now than about 10 or even 5 years ago. We both suffer from depression and anxiety (different levels, obviously, as I tend to lean toward the depression side) and I don't handle stress very well. From all of the conversations and arguments we've had, it leads me to think that she doesn't really care if I would be stressed about it. Like it's just a simple new skill to learn and after that it's like riding a bike. No matter what I say, we just end up in argument after argument. I've approached her calmly and rationally already and nothing I say seems to get through to her. It's beyond frustrating now, as the argument we had about an hour ago left me in the bedroom typing this on my phone and her on the living room couch, probably laying down and sifting through Facebook (which is yet another topic). I've prayed about this yet nothing changes. She is hell-bent on getting a manual car and I don't need the extra stress of learning how to drive one (and the frustrations that would inevitably arise).
I know this may sound trivial to some people, but it is not even close to trivial between myself and my wife. I don't know what to say, think, pray, do, etc. anymore. If anyone has any advise, I would greatly appreciate it.
Apologies for the wall of text.
Now that lengthy intro is out of the way... I come here with a heavy and frustrated heart. My wife wants a manual transmission car whenever we could actually afford one. She knows how to drive manual and I do not. She is beyond "adamant" about it, even crying about it once. We had yet another argument about it an hour ago. I say that learning it would be an extra and unwanted source of stress. I'm not that old (40 and my wife is 37) but I put things into a different perspective now than about 10 or even 5 years ago. We both suffer from depression and anxiety (different levels, obviously, as I tend to lean toward the depression side) and I don't handle stress very well. From all of the conversations and arguments we've had, it leads me to think that she doesn't really care if I would be stressed about it. Like it's just a simple new skill to learn and after that it's like riding a bike. No matter what I say, we just end up in argument after argument. I've approached her calmly and rationally already and nothing I say seems to get through to her. It's beyond frustrating now, as the argument we had about an hour ago left me in the bedroom typing this on my phone and her on the living room couch, probably laying down and sifting through Facebook (which is yet another topic). I've prayed about this yet nothing changes. She is hell-bent on getting a manual car and I don't need the extra stress of learning how to drive one (and the frustrations that would inevitably arise).
I know this may sound trivial to some people, but it is not even close to trivial between myself and my wife. I don't know what to say, think, pray, do, etc. anymore. If anyone has any advise, I would greatly appreciate it.
Apologies for the wall of text.