Why

[AnointedPoetess]

why does it seem like when it comes to me every1 just turns away, like i dont even matter?? wats wrong with me that i cant feel spec, loved, or appreciated by ANY1 in this whole world? i know i have God but i need ppl too.. i dont know wat to do anymore and im getting more depressed and lonely every day.. plz help..

 

[pockleberry]

You do matter! I know it probably isn't much comfort to you but I care about you and if i could I would be there for you. keep talking to ppl about how you feel, it will get better but none of us know how long it will take I'll be praying for you email me if you wanna talk anytime x

 

[EarthenVessel]

why does it seem like when it comes to me every1 just turns away, like i dont even matter?? wats wrong with me that i cant feel spec, loved, or appreciated by ANY1 in this whole world? i know i have God but i need ppl too.. i dont know wat to do anymore and im getting more depressed and lonely every day.. plz help..

You may find what I have to say a bit harsh - but to be honest - I have reached out to you and so have others. As someone (myself) who has had severe debilitating depression for over 10 years - and struggled and suffered much - and has recently just lost her mother - I am going to be very tough on you - either you want to get better and stop feeling sorry for yourself or you don't want the help. I understand when one is depressed that it can "seem" like nobody cares - you need to open up to ppl and I/others have offered our e-mail address. I see you are quite young and it would appear that though your depression is quite real - you may be seeking and needing attention. If you want help then you need to receive it and stop feeling sorry for yourself. I do say this with love.

 

[thenewageriseth]

You may find what I have to say a bit harsh - but to be honest - I have reached out to you and so have others. As someone (myself) who has had severe debilitating depression for over 10 years - and struggled and suffered much - and has recently just lost her mother - I am going to be very tough on you - either you want to get better and stop feeling sorry for yourself or you don't want the help. I understand when one is depressed that it can "seem" like nobody cares - you need to open up to ppl and I/others have offered our e-mail address. I see you are quite young and it would appear that though your depression is quite real - you may be seeking and needing attention. If you want help then you need to receive it and stop feeling sorry for yourself. I do say this with love.

I'm sorry, I totally have to concur with EarthenVessel. Anoited, what you do need to do is dust yourself off by the boots (if uknow what I mean) and do something about the situation. It's true that some ppl have reached out to you, just like in the Member's News, and so have I, but i think the thing is that you do need to open up more to people. What I will do is I am going to refer you to my cousin Sherry Gordon, who has more expertise on this than I do. I will e-mail her promptly about your sitch, if you want...She's a great mentor for young ppl...But, really though, ppl have been reaching out to you on CF but it seems like that your depression is so great that you don't even seem to notice that much, so what u need to do is try your BEST to get rid of the depression...and if I was you I would do something about the situation...otherwise you'll never get outta the dumps.!..so I hope this helps

 

[PorcelainHeart]

You do matter alot, to me and probley everyone on here. Please, don't feel so low you are one of my best friends. I hope you start to cheer up soon. I know life can be hard but never give up. After every storm there is a rainbow.

 

[BLESSED_KiSSY]

sweetie! You're not alone! i'm sorry that i'm not always there for you to talk to, but i am still praying for ya, hun. you're like my big sister. i trust you more than most of the people i know in my life. I'm really glad we met. And we are close, close in God, and by the blood of Jesus Christ. Don't loose hope, sweetie! Everything is gonna get better.



God bless you Crystal!
Your sister in Christ,
Anna

 

[4childofgod]

You may find what I have to say a bit harsh - but to be honest - I have reached out to you and so have others. As someone (myself) who has had severe debilitating depression for over 10 years - and struggled and suffered much - and has recently just lost her mother - I am going to be very tough on you - either you want to get better and stop feeling sorry for yourself or you don't want the help. I understand when one is depressed that it can "seem" like nobody cares - you need to open up to ppl and I/others have offered our e-mail address. I see you are quite young and it would appear that though your depression is quite real - you may be seeking and needing attention. If you want help then you need to receive it and stop feeling sorry for yourself. I do say this with love.

If you have really felt this persons pain then you would know what you say is easier said then done! You can't just get over depression! It can be debilitating.

 

[4childofgod]

why does it seem like when it comes to me every1 just turns away, like i dont even matter?? wats wrong with me that i cant feel spec, loved, or appreciated by ANY1 in this whole world? i know i have God but i need ppl too.. i dont know wat to do anymore and im getting more depressed and lonely every day.. plz help..

Poor thing I know what that feels like it is like God brings people into your life sometimes quickly out to. You do need people what about family? Do you have 1 close friend? I'll be Praying God bless write me if you want to talk! bye

 

[AnointedPoetess]

ty all for your replies, i appreciate the concern, speaking the truth in love and i agree with 4C, depression isnt a easy thing to overcome.. but i will.. with my Gods help..

 

[PorcelainHeart]

Depression is one of the hardest things to over come. Especially when bad things keep happening to you.

 

[thenewageriseth]

Depression is one of the hardest things to over come. Especially when bad things keep happening to you.

Word up and true dat. I've been depressed off and on, ever since graduating from high school, myself, to tell you the truth...and my cousin told me not to fear, but it's kinda hard sometimes...she said that God can help me out with my fear...

 

[EarthenVessel]

If you have really felt this persons pain then you would know what you say is easier said then done! You can't just get over depression! It can be debilitating.

Please don't misunderstand me. If you will read my post again - you will see that I wrote that I have been severely depressed for over 10 years and it has been debilitating. I have been through so much in the past 2 years - one trial after another. I am not telling her to 'dust her boots off' - I know better than that - I just noticed that since I have been here she seems to not want to get help. Depression can be self-perpetuating. I still suffer - and I have been in extreme psychic pain. I prefer not to comment anymore here but will gladly send you a pm.

Blessings to you!

 

[AnointedPoetess]

EV, i do want the help but just scared.. fighting btw wanting to get better while afraid of how getting better would be or feel.. plz dont think we are jumping on u bc we're not.. u spoke the truth in love and i havta accept that.. well the parts that i agree with but thxs..

 

[Jim47]

why does it seem like when it comes to me every1 just turns away, like i dont even matter?? wats wrong with me that i cant feel spec, loved, or appreciated by ANY1 in this whole world? i know i have God but i need ppl too.. i dont know wat to do anymore and im getting more depressed and lonely every day.. plz help..

Hi Anoited Poetess

I would like to offer you some help as also.
First, a few things you should know:

People who suffer from depression always feel like they don't have friends "or" anyone who loves them, when actually they may be surronded with people who do love them and want to befriend them. That is about the single hardest obstacle to overcome if you want to get better.

When someone offers you friendship or love, don't analyze their motives to try and see if what they say is "The real thing" If someone offers you friendship, why should you feel that they are not genuine? If you are honest with yourself, you probably have these same doubts about God and His love for you, if so, that would more or less normal feelings of depression.

Now what I want you to understand, is that I too have had some bouts with depression, nothing that I had to see a Doctor for, but it was real, that is why I have "some" understanding of how you may feel.

Next, Earthen Vessel pretty much hit the nail on the head with her post on the first page. If you want to get over depression, you have to learn to really want to, and to trust those who offer their friendship. Yes, this will mean not trusting your own feelings and instincts, you see, because of depression, you are the last one you should trust.

I'm going to be honest with you and tell you now, I may not make it back to this thread, as I have some problems I am dealing with myself, and memory loss is one of them. You are welcome to PM me, but please learn to trust others.

I can vouch for Earthen Vessels problems, I have know her for about a year, maybe longer, and by The grace of God, she has made great progress in getting better, you can too, all you have to do is learn to accept the help that is offered.

May God be with you.

 

[thenewageriseth]

Word up I'm sorry if I did offend anyone...with the "dust your boots off" statement...I was trying my best to give advice...perhaps my cousin's better at this...

 

[EarthenVessel]

EV, i do want the help but just scared.. fighting btw wanting to get better while afraid of how getting better would be or feel.. plz dont think we are jumping on u bc we're not.. u spoke the truth in love and i havta accept that.. well the parts that i agree with but thxs..

First, I don't feel like anyone is jumping on me. I do want to rightly justify what I wrote.

Second, I understand - it is actually quite normal to "feel" normal again. It is scary. I have been on just about every med or at least one or more in each class. I was finally put on a MAOI - when it kicked in I felt manic and it was strange feeling good and wanting to do things.

I also want to state - I am by no means cured. I may end up on here feeling extremely down someday and asking for the same advice that I myself am giving.

God Bless!

 

[bethdinsmore]

...scared.. fighting btw wanting to get better while afraid of how getting better would be or feel.. .

I agree with Earthenvessel about the vital importance of wanting to get well.

And I also well understand where you're coming from. For me (and eventually those in my Christian recovery groups), things were so bad and seemingly out of control that we felt like change would probably only make things worse. We had drawn layers of protection around us of various sorts - coping behaviors, dysfunctional thinking (denial, black or white, all or nothing, etc.). They hadn't worked all that well, but they were all we knew that worked.

We knew that drastic change was needed, but that meant laying down all our protection in order to try and pick up some new tools. And it is not uncommon to have a fear of the unknown.

I think one of the things that has helped us the most was being in a group where we could observe success in others. We could see what tools worked for them. Learning to trust God and rely on Him - learning how to let go and let God. Letting go is scary. That's why I lead Christian recovery groups, similar to Overcomers Outreach. As they learn from God and the Scriptures, they share their experience, strength, and hope in God with each other. They listen, and they really know what the other person is going thru. And it is a good safe place to practice our new skills. Some of the people also are seeing Christian counselors, and each really enhances the other.

Also, friend, if you have not yet been checked by a doctor for your depression, it's a good idea - so he can see if it's your brain chemistry and deal with it.

As to your comment concerning how better feels, put your cursor over my CF character. God has plans to give you a hope and a future worth fighting for (Jeremiah 29, verse 13 I think)

I'll pray for you - aloha in Jesus