Why

[soonto_be]

Whay do I do this? Why do I always hurt myself, over and over? I don't understand. Nothing bad ever happened to me. It seems like with everyone else, there's a reason. They were absued or abondoned or raped. I wasn't. I have a fairly good life. Granted, some things could be better. But I know people that are going through worse and they're not cutting their arms. I cut myself every day! It's not right. It's not fair. WHY? Wy does it have to be so addicting? Why was I foolesh enough to even start in the first place? Why can't anyone support me? Everyone tells me I'm just trying to get attention. I'm not! How could I possibly do something like that?? I just wish someone cared about me. Anyone...


Done with the drama. I just needed to get that out. I'm rational now. The thing I don't understand is this: Why do people assume that 1)If you cut yourself, you're insane? or 2) there has to be something that happened to make you do it. Even my counselor thinks that I must have been abused or something before my dad left because there's just no reason for me to cut myself. It doesn't make sense.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

You don't need some tragic event to trigger self-injury.
You mentioned your dad leaving. I've noticed that issues regarding fathers are common among self-injurers. See if talking about you and your dad brings up anything next time you're with your counselor.

 

[bethdinsmore]

I'm so sorry to hear of your suffering, and hope you soon find the answer. Another possibility occurs to me, though it's probably unlikely:

If a person has ever been involved in the occult, no matter how innocently, the cutting could be demonic, I believe. I speak from personal experience, and from the experiences of several people that I led to the Lord. If you think it could be an issue, it could help to speak to a person who deals with these things on the staff of a large Bible-believing church.

Whatever the case, I'll pray for you, as our Lord is able to deliver you. God bless you.

aloha in Jesus

 

[Hidden face_Hurting heart]

Someone once accused me of dabbling in the occult because of my depression. I can honestly day it didn't help. It made it worse. And no, I never have. I know you're trying to help...and maybe in rare cases, what you said might be true....however, even in those rare cases, I don't know that it would help to say that they are being demonically influenced, at least not unless you are right there with them in person and can take care of the problem then and there. Over the internet, I don't see how it can do any good. Thank you for saying what you did in as kind and understanding way as possible. No matter how it is said, it can hurt though. Thank you for your concern, but please be careful.

 

[soonto_be]

I've never done anything occultwise. It's not an issue for me.
It's so weird, I've been a "good" kid all my life. I've gone to church all my life, got saved at a young age. But I've always hurt myself in various ways. For as long as I can remember. I never use to know what I was doing was wrong. Out of the ordinary. I didn;t even think about it.

 

[soonto_be]

Yeah. I have a tendancy to go off on things like that. Sorry. Just ignore me.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

I don't self injure.
I don't think you're weird, crazy, or possessed, or whatever else people tell you guys.
Some people don't understand, but are willing to listen. Some people don't understand and seem to like it that way. Know which ones to ignore.

 

[luv4godremains]

I'll be praying for you! I hope you manage to get to the root of this problem, if ya ever wanna chat, I'm here for ya! I understand what it's like to have a Dad walk out on you too! so feel free to PM me anytime! God bless, *hugs*

 

[spunkiegirl]

Hmmmm.....I never had anything bad happen to me either. I think that actually made it worse, it was like - hey, I have no reason to be doing this, unlike some people, so I must be an awful person. It's not true though, you don't need some huge tragedy in your life to SI. Heck, with your dad leaving you have more of a reason than I did!

 

[Soulwings]

Whay do I do this? Why do I always hurt myself, over and over? I don't understand. Nothing bad ever happened to me. It seems like with everyone else, there's a reason. They were absued or abondoned or raped. I wasn't. I have a fairly good life. Granted, some things could be better. But I know people that are going through worse and they're not cutting their arms. I cut myself every day! It's not right. It's not fair. WHY? Wy does it have to be so addicting? Why was I foolesh enough to even start in the first place? Why can't anyone support me? Everyone tells me I'm just trying to get attention. I'm not! How could I possibly do something like that?? I just wish someone cared about me. Anyone...


Done with the drama. I just needed to get that out. I'm rational now. The thing I don't understand is this: Why do people assume that 1)If you cut yourself, you're insane? or 2) there has to be something that happened to make you do it. Even my counselor thinks that I must have been abused or something before my dad left because there's just no reason for me to cut myself. It doesn't make sense.

I know where you're coming from.
In fact, I totally understand, because I've felt that way before too. And Mr. Cheese is right. You don't need something huge and terrible in your life to trigger self injury. I've been called perverted, sick, and nauseating for cutting, and before I was *ahem* forced by a friend with kind intentions to get help, I didn't realize that it was out of the ordinary. I still don't really accept that, because it feels normal to me.
If you want to talk, feel free to IM/pm me. God bless.