I would like to share my testimony with you. Ill try to keep it short.
I was raised Catholic but left the faith to become a Protestant born-again Christians. I went to a Protestant seminary, and then became a Baptist minister. For three years I loved the people and they loved me. Its a long story that I do not to bore you, but after three year we had a difference of opinion and I was kicked out. I felt that I was betrayed. They even lied to other and what actually happened. I was devastated. Each day I had to battle thoughts of suicide. The worst thing was that God seemed so distant. I felt He abandoned me. I was angry at God. I fell into looking at porn all the time. I tried to get out of this. I would go to church and respond to altar calls. But nothing helped. Finally I gave up on the church. The church scene would bring back the bitter memories of what happened to me.
I finally married a Catholic woman. I went to Mass with her. I was bored, but at least the Mass was so different than the Baptist service that it did not bring my bitter memories. I no longer suffered from my severe depression and thoughts of suicide. But I still sensed an emptiness inside, I was addicted to porn, and I felt distant from God. In fact, I could not pray to God anymore. Every time I tried to pray, my bitter memories came back to me.
I started to listen to Catholic radio. This brought back memories of a Catholic friend who discussed with me about the Catholic Church. Intellectually, I became convinced of the Catholic Church. But I still was not getting fed there. I still found the Mass boring. After fifteen years of being in the Catholic church again, I decided to receive the Eucharist. Right after receiving the Eucharist, I received an incredible urge to go to Confession, which I did. Then I started having a desire to pray the Rosary.
My life changed. I gave up porn. I was able to pray to God again. He no longer seemed distant. In fact, I feel closer to God then I ever felt before, even when I was a minister. I was able to forgive those who hurt me in the past. And I have an incredible love for Jesus that I never had before. There is nothing more important to me than to serve Him.
When I was an Evangelical, I heard many testimonies from people whom God touched. I heard how God touched them through someones witness, I heard how God touched them through a sermon, I heard how God touched them through prayer. But I never heard a testimony as a Baptist on how God changed his life through the Lords Supper. When I was a Baptist, this bothered me. Jesus instituted this Supper just before He died, so Jesus must have considered it important for ones spiritual life. And yet I never met a Baptist who said that the Lords Supper changed his life. I heard Baptists saying that the Bible changed their lives. But never the Lords Supper. And yet if the Lords Supper does not change our lives, did not Jesus institute an empty ritual? But this does make sense! Jesus just condemned the Pharisees for their empty rituals. Why would institute an empty ritual?
And yet as a Baptist, it was a mere empty ritual. As a Baptist minister, we only had the Lords Supper once every three months. I used to rationalize this by saying to myself that the less we have it that the more special it would be for us. But this bunk! Using this logic, it would be better to pray or read the Bible very infrequently, because the more we pray or read the Bible, the more special it would be. In Acts 2:46, it that the New Testament church was devoted daily to the breaking of the bread, which is the Lords Supper. The is no Protestant Church that celebrates the Lords Supper every days. The Catholic Church is alone is doing that.
I go to Mass every day to receive Christ in the Eucharist before I go to work. I do not do this because I am required to do this. And I am not doing this because I think I am holier-than-thou. In fact, I do this because I realize how weak I am without it. When I go, there are 75 to 100 Catholics who are there with me to receive the Eucharist. I cannot imagine these people doing this every day except that they, along with me, found that the Eucharist changed their lives! This is the same thing that New Testament church discovered and took the Eucharist daily.
I just wanted to point out that true theology should change our lives, otherwise it is merely idle speculation, which the Bible condemns (1Tim 1:4). With this theological discussion going on, ask yourself this question. Has God changed your life through the bread and wine that you take? If not, then I think it should give you pause on whether your theology of the elements of the bread and wine is true. If God is not using the Eucharist to change your life, then maybe you do not have the right Eucharist.