Ok Mike, I've read through the thread, some of it was just bickering. Let's try to get an answer by putting our brains to work. I have seen one major error in your position. If you can sort this out then you could be able to take your favorite parts of that remote island you crashed into (
post #33) and keep on sailing. The problem I see is that you've believed that the majority of churches are preaching the right doctrine. The problem here is that you've probably only absorbed very small proportions of what the church leaders were preaching, you've probably heard these fragments in an improper context, and it is even possible that the preachers were entirely wrong. So you need to cut that loose and look toward the definitive source of Christian doctrine: the Bible. What I've noticed about this matter in the Bible is that ever since the very beginning it is about life and death. Remember that Adam and Eve were warned that they would die for their sin? So we have to face death. Does that mean that we are tortured forever? Certainly not. It means we completely die altogether. Cease to exist. Thinking doesn't happen. Everything you ever loved about life is gone. Everyone who ever loved you has lost you forever. That is the second death spoken of in Revelation 20:14.
So we need to get this straight first of all. Is your concern actually based upon biblical fact or is it based upon hear-say? In order to get to the bottom of this we are going to need to investigate scripture and think about what it means. I hope you aren't afraid to do that. Would you mind posting the verses that you are concerned about and let's see whether God really is the evil person you have come to think of Him as being.