If i had listened to God, i wouldn't be suffering right now. Thats the truth, I didn't follow what he taught, and now im suffering because of that, Its not him who caused my depression and other things, its people who treat me like dirt. Had i listened to God, i would have not needed to endure the abuse of people. I cant speak for others, but thats my story. Should i be angry at God for not making me obey him, so i would not need to suffer at the hands of people? I dont see how being bitter and angry will make it better. Its my fault and thats the truth. However, God promises hope and restoration one day, in heaven.
So i embrace his message of love for others, i learn to forgive them, which actually relieves my suffering because unforgiveness only disturbs my peace in a very bad way, I cannot see how God is at fault for anything, and he actually tried to warn me, You can blame him for not creating a better life for me, but that would mean that you would admit he is real. If he is real then how can i possibly be angry at him? Hes my only hope.