Why do I think this way?

[memoriesbymichelle]

I have always been like this, and I just can't figure out WHY or if anyone else is like me. I always have weird thoughts about possibilities that "could" happen where ever I am. Like I could be driving on an overpass and think "what would happen if I just cranked the wheel and went flying off the overpass?" Of COURSE I KNOW what would happen, but why do I think that? It's like I think of the worst possible scenerios of things. Like when I'm at the Grand Canyon and you look over the edge I think about someone pushing someone off, or slipping and falling off. It happens more when I am high in the air but I don't like it! I am going on a cruise this summer and I can already imagine what would happen if you got too close to the edge of the ship and fell overboard. Trust me I don't WANT to think like this and I always put it out of my mind immediately, but I can't figure out if this is my protective mode going into action, or some morbid thought pattern that originated from who knows where. Any thoughts? Anybody else like me? Maybe I AM the only one that thinks like me lol.

 

[Inkachu]

I have a very similar way of thinking, and I hate it just as much you do! I don't have the exact same thoughts, but a very similar pattern of negative "what if's" always in my head. I don't know WHY it is, but I do know it's not from God, and I need to keep fighting to change it. I know if I discipline myself to pray and surrender regularly, and be very careful about what I watch and listen to and think about, it does get better. I have a serious tendency towards anxiety and depression, so I need to be very vigilant about this stuff.

 

[cmascio]

Ya I do the same thing.. lol. I think it is just kind of the way we size up the situation we are in.

 

[Alphadux]

Nah, it's not just you. I've had thoughts somewhat like that.

 

[overit]

You're not alone Sometimes I have really crazy thoughts pop in my head ...i think it's not as unusual as you may think.

 

[ido]

Yup - I totally do stuff like that. There is a steep ditch on the road that leads to my development and every day when I drive past it, I imagine myself driving off into it.

 

[Apollo Celestio]

It's normal. You just get the sudden urge to bludgeon yourself or the human adjacent to you for no apparent reason. They're not usually strong impulses though.

 

[latteda]

I think about how horrible it would be to drive off a bridge into the water every single time I cross a bridge.

I don't think it's that unusual.

 

[rosenherman]

I have always been like this, and I just can't figure out WHY or if anyone else is like me. I always have weird thoughts about possibilities that "could" happen where ever I am. Like I could be driving on an overpass and think "what would happen if I just cranked the wheel and went flying off the overpass?" Of COURSE I KNOW what would happen, but why do I think that? It's like I think of the worst possible scenerios of things. Like when I'm at the Grand Canyon and you look over the edge I think about someone pushing someone off, or slipping and falling off. It happens more when I am high in the air but I don't like it! I am going on a cruise this summer and I can already imagine what would happen if you got too close to the edge of the ship and fell overboard. Trust me I don't WANT to think like this and I always put it out of my mind immediately, but I can't figure out if this is my protective mode going into action, or some morbid thought pattern that originated from who knows where. Any thoughts? Anybody else like me? Maybe I AM the only one that thinks like me lol.

Rest easy, you're one of thousands of us, or maybe hundreds of thousands of us. I think it's part self-protection. It keeps you from getting too close to the edge without something sturdy to hang on to.

 

[Inkachu]

Seriously, I'm glad that I'm not alone in this, too!

 

[memoriesbymichelle]

WHEW! OK then, maybe I'm not insane.....well maybe I still am, but anyway I am feeling SO much better that I'm not alone in this kind of thinking . I really think it's the enemy trying to put those thoughts into my head. I believe that not every thought we have is our own thought, unless and until we "own" it by contemplating it or talking about doing it or whatever. I know if I let it, it could be a real hindrence in my life. WOW I can't believe how much better it makes me feel knowing some of you have had similar thoughts. Thanks for that!

 

[TanteBelle]

I have always been like this, and I just can't figure out WHY or if anyone else is like me. I always have weird thoughts about possibilities that "could" happen where ever I am. Like I could be driving on an overpass and think "what would happen if I just cranked the wheel and went flying off the overpass?" Of COURSE I KNOW what would happen, but why do I think that? It's like I think of the worst possible scenerios of things. Like when I'm at the Grand Canyon and you look over the edge I think about someone pushing someone off, or slipping and falling off. It happens more when I am high in the air but I don't like it! I am going on a cruise this summer and I can already imagine what would happen if you got too close to the edge of the ship and fell overboard. Trust me I don't WANT to think like this and I always put it out of my mind immediately, but I can't figure out if this is my protective mode going into action, or some morbid thought pattern that originated from who knows where. Any thoughts? Anybody else like me? Maybe I AM the only one that thinks like me lol.

Haha! Yeah, I just call it my imagination getting the better of me! LOL! But you know, it can actually be a good thing! There are some folks who don't consider the possibilities and so end up hurting themselves over and over again. By one thinking about what could happen, it encourages them to take extra precautions!

 

[Quoth]

Whenever I get to some elevated point (like the top of a ledge or on one of those "sky lift" rides), I always get this strange feeling, as if my feet are going to just walk forward by themselves. I also have a feeling that every roller coaster I get on is going to go flying off the tracks into oblivion.

When I was younger, I used to have some very odd thoughts about people, but many of them have subsided. Whenever I have a "bad thought", I don't dwell on it, and it passes away. Much like a craving for a cigarette--don't focus on it, and it's not as likely to bug you.

 

[BarelyBreathing]

I have always had these thoughts also. There is a Bjork song..... (I bolded one part of it.)

Hyper-Ballad

We live on a mountain
Right at the top
There's a beautiful view
From the top of the mountain
Every morning I walk towards the edge...
And throw little things off
Like car-parts, bottles and cutlery
Or whatever I find lying around.

It's become a habit
A way
To start the day

I go through all this
Before you wake up
So I can feel happier
To be safe up here with you
I go through all this
Before you wake up
So I can feel happier
To be safe up here with you

It's early morning
No-one is awake
I'm back at my cliff
Still throwing things off
I listen to the sounds they make
On their way down
I follow with my eyes 'til they crash
I imagine what my body would sound like
Slamming against those rocks
And when it lands
Will my eyes be closed or open?

I go through all this
Before you wake up
So I can feel happier
To be safe up here with you

I go through all this
Before you wake up
So I can feel happier
To be safe up here with you
I go through all this
Before you wake up
So I can feel happier
To be safe up here with you

 

[rosenherman]

WHEW! OK then, maybe I'm not insane.....well maybe I still am, but anyway I am feeling SO much better that I'm not alone in this kind of thinking . I really think it's the enemy trying to put those thoughts into my head. I believe that not every thought we have is our own thought, unless and until we "own" it by contemplating it or talking about doing it or whatever. I know if I let it, it could be a real hindrence in my life. WOW I can't believe how much better it makes me feel knowing some of you have had similar thoughts. Thanks for that!

I think you're right about every thought not being our own thoughts unless we "own" it by contemplating it or talking about doing it or whatever. When the enemy attacks me in that way I remember that I can't undo the past. It doesn't have anything to do with me anymore. And God has already won and I have nothing to be concerned about. I'm so relieved to know someone else thinks twice before accepting a thought.

 

[Stravinsk]

I have always been like this, and I just can't figure out WHY or if anyone else is like me. I always have weird thoughts about possibilities that "could" happen where ever I am. Like I could be driving on an overpass and think "what would happen if I just cranked the wheel and went flying off the overpass?" Of COURSE I KNOW what would happen, but why do I think that? It's like I think of the worst possible scenerios of things. Like when I'm at the Grand Canyon and you look over the edge I think about someone pushing someone off, or slipping and falling off. It happens more when I am high in the air but I don't like it! I am going on a cruise this summer and I can already imagine what would happen if you got too close to the edge of the ship and fell overboard. Trust me I don't WANT to think like this and I always put it out of my mind immediately, but I can't figure out if this is my protective mode going into action, or some morbid thought pattern that originated from who knows where. Any thoughts? Anybody else like me? Maybe I AM the only one that thinks like me lol.

I have a friend who admitted to me that she has to be carefully watched if she visits a high lookout or building where it is possible to jump off. The same thoughts occur to her.

She also loves skydiving.

 

[memoriesbymichelle]

Whenever I get to some elevated point (like the top of a ledge or on one of those "sky lift" rides), I always get this strange feeling, as if my feet are going to just walk forward by themselves. I also have a feeling that every roller coaster I get on is going to go flying off the tracks into oblivion.

I get that feeling every time on those swings at carnivals and fairs that go around and around. I always think if the chains come undone I would go..whoosh flying out and crash landing. It's like I'm always thinking what if I fell, or what if someone pushed me or what if I jumped. Of COURSE I would NEVER actually do those things, but I really HATE thinking about them too. I also never thought I'd live past 25 for some reason and now I am twice that age....although when my husband died we had almost been married for 25 years hmmmmm......

 

[RJM]

It's nice to know I'm not the only one who has these crazy thoughts. I just thought I was paranoid. It's worse when I have my nieces and nephews around. I'm always afraid that one of them is going to get hurt or kidnapped. I have some weird fear about driving over the edge of cliffs or off a bridge into water.

 

[h3sean]

Definitely normal

 

[Thunder Peel]

I do this sometimes too, so you're definitely not alone. I think it's probably a case, at least for me, of having an overactive imagination.

It reminds me of something Jerry Seinfeld once said: "Sometimes when I'm with family or someone and they're talking about something boring I'll just starting thinking 'What would happen if I just jumped out this window right now?'"