Why do I really need medication?

[Jesus is Coming Soon!!!]

I have been diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder, but I'm not sure I really need to be on medication. I am on Invega, but sometimes I question medication because I understand that my mental illness sometimes can be caused by demons. I think there were spiritual reasons that I was allowed to experience mental illness. In my first episode in 2009 which was the most terrifying, I heard voices criticizing and mocking me. I believe those were demons. I believe God allowed me to be attacked by demons because of sin in my life, sort of as a wake up call. I was holding on to an attitude of bitterness/ arrogance/ unforgiveness towards a company that had fired me and in a defining moment I became convinced/ delusional that the people from the company were planning to kill me, so I ran away from home and had my first episode. If the episode of mental illness was planned by God as divine correction, then wouldn't taking medication be trying to resist something that God planned as a form of correction. There is not really very good evidence there is a problem with my brain, but I think the cause was more of a spiritual reason than biological or chemical.

However sometime mania or racing thoughts affect me where I can go for 2 nights in a row without sleep, so maybe the medication helps.

In some of my episodes of mental illness God makes himself known to me in special ways through messages on a Christian radio station that he plans just for me. I have read/ heard that schizophrenia includes thinking you hear special messages just for you on the radio, and this usually happens during a time where I am thinking so much that I don't sleep the whole night.

I am questioning whether I really need medication because when I am off my medication I can go for a number of months before I have another episode of mania or mental illness. So why do I need a medication that costs over a thousand dollars a month? Wouldn't it be easier to just have a sleeping pill that I take occasionally when I am troubled with a manic episode where I can't sleep at night?

In my most recent episode of mental illness I thought the book of Revelation chapter 17 and 18 about mystery Babylon, which says "come out of her my people" meant that I should quit my job, but I was deceived and I think it was actually the devil that motivated me.

Lastly I will post a quote that I received from someone's post on a Christian discussion forum:

"Thank you for writing. I'm sorry for the difficulties you've had, but know that God has the solution through His Word.

Jeff, there is nothing new under the sun. Your experiences have been repeated numerous times down through history. People experienced them in Jesus' day. Back then He healed them, as there was no official psychiatry (though the ideas of course were there). So why do we say that back then Jesus healed people, but today drugs are the solution? Oh, we've learned so much have we? We've discovered so much? No. The reality is we've turned away from the One Who alone can truly heal and have turned to false solutions.

Jeff did you know that there is no medical test that proves a "chemical imbalance?" No X-ray, no blood test, no urine analysis, no nothing. People are being prescribed drugs that directly affect their thinking based upon no medical test showing the need for them. What kind of medical practice is that? It's more like witchcraft. Especially considering that the side-effects are nothing short of demonic.

Of course you believe that not all psychiatry is bad. You are taking drugs. Your mind is directly impacted by them. You are open to their form of "healing" because the drugs are doing precisely what they are meant to do in you.

It is my hope that one day Jesus will be seen as the One Who heals again, and that Satan's lies in psychiatry with the inevitable resultant drug prescriptions will be shown to be the false solutions that they are. At some point, people must repent for this to happen. May God make it so, before the whole world believes the lie of "chemical imbalance" and becomes drug addicts."

 

[orangeness365]

If the drugs work then doesn't that mean that it is biological and chemical?

 

[Gottservant]

As the root grows strong near the fence, so the branches must be cut from the neighbour's yard.

Psychosis is a response to stress, between what you want to perfect, and what that perfection costs you physically to get it.

Just as a tree can become very strong in its roots near the fence of someone's property, so growing strong means that the branches extend out into the neighbour's property and must be cut.

We are unified creatures, when one part of us grows strong, there are carry over effects for the rest of our bodies. For example, if I am strong at deflecting character so that little attention is paid to me, I naturally allow my mind to be flooded with strange ideas, because I can easily put them out of my mind and its easier to be lazy about it. But because I deflect character so easily, and because I let my mind be flooded with strange ideas as a result, God needs to do something to prune those strange ideas from my mind, otherwise they lodge there. So its not that I have done something wrong, its just that there are consequences for developing the strengths that I have developed. So I get schizophrenia, and the schizophrenia stops me from using my ability to deflect character and put things out of my mind, to develop strange ideas that shouldn't be there. It stops me from developing those strange ideas.

It's like a kid in a candy shop. He has the money and he thinks he has the time, so he looks at all the candies that are available for age after age after age. As long as he has the money in his hand, he will keep looking at all the candies. But if his mother tells him to hurry up, he will have to make a choice and he will have to make it quickly. So psychosis tells us to hurry up, when we would otherwise wait to our detriment.

The thing is, sometimes you need medication, because you are the kid in the candy store and your mother has started screaming "hurry up!" and you are still not listening and its starting to get confusing about what you should do, even if you should hold on to the money any more. Without the medication, your mother's screaming will drive you crazy and it's not because you haven't got some kind of motivation to do something. With the medication, you will buy the candy like you always do and the problem will be over. Of course, you can always have too much of anything.

 

[generalbreadbasket]

That's an interesting way of putting it, Gottservant. I relate to the perfectionism aspect.

 

[EGordo]

God gave knowledge to doctors in order to help people. Use that help and get on medication. One day you might become so delusional that you do something erratic and end up in a life-or-death situation. God wants you to be healthy. Please take the help.

 

[Denvercross]

You need medication because the psychiatrist said so. Once someone is diagnosed with a mental illness he goes immediately to the psychiatric ''jail''. Once you're in their system there is no escape. The doctor becomes your boss and you must do everything he says. You become under control. Your freedom is therefore limited. But yeah, the pills are working.

 

[forGod1]

i have no idea what this perfect crap means

 

[generalbreadbasket]

You need medication because the psychiatrist said so. Once someone is diagnosed with a mental illness he goes immediately to the psychiatric ''jail''. Once you're in their system there is no escape. The doctor becomes your boss and you must do everything he says. You become under control. Your freedom is therefore limited. But yeah, the pills are working.

God willing, circumstances can change. A competent psychiatrist just wants to see their patients back in life and stable again, and that can be a struggle, and when you're in that struggle they may seem overwhelming. Don't give up.

 

[FutureAndAHope]

Hi,

I have been on medication in the past and it caused a lot of bad side effects for me. If your medication is not causing side effects I would not be worried about taking it, it will not hurt, and God won't think you have a lack of faith. But the reality is that hearing voices is demonic. I was hearing voices for many years, but once I removed sin from my life, and asked God to heal me I was freed. My personal belief is the only reason why medication works for some people is that the devil goes quiet, he thinks that if he can cause people to think the problem is biological, he can use that to make them doubt all spiritual experience. In my opinion mediaction will not solve your problem, only removing sin from your life, and standing on the fact that God forgives you and gives you power over demons will work. That is what worked for me. I was not even on medication when I was freed fom hearing demons.