Why do I even exist

[Newsgurl]

i feel at this point in my life I feel useless. I can’t keep a job no longer than 4 months I have no money to do anything with and my parents at the time r paying all my bills. I have bipolar and I feel like I’m getting out of control. I can’t go anywhere b/c I have no money nor do I have the gas to waste I just stay home and do nothing. So my big question is this. Why am I even here? I’m not doing anything with my life and my dad won’t let me get a job at this point so I feel useless. Nobody understands me my friends say they do but they actually don’t. Why am I like this. Why did God make someone like me who has so many emotional/depressive/bipolar problems. If I could change what happened to me when I was 7 I would but I can’t and now I get the after effects of having encephalitis which is personality problems and aggressive behavior. Is there anyone that can offer help? I see a therapist and a psychiatrist but I feel they just want my money they don’t care about getting me better.

 

[FutureAndAHope]

One of the biggest issues we often have in life is feeling accepted. If our life does not go the way we had planned we feel let down. In the past I suffered from a lot of rejection, this caused me to become very depressed, and angry. I felt like there was no point in living. It just seemed like everything went against me. However the bible tells us that "all things work together for good for those who love God", and "delight your self in the LORD and he will grant you your hearts desires". Now I struggled with delighting in God, for I felt so let down by life, but I tried. I tried to love God, tried to do good. And you know it paid off. God bought me out of my loneliness in to a place of fulfilment, and even happiness, that I never thought could be mine. The same applies to you, as you try your best to love God and serve him you will end up blessed in the end. The bible says "seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all the other things will be added to you".

 

[Jeshu]

So sorry to hear that you have bipolar as well and find it hard to find purpose and meaning in your life. i got bipolar as well and struggled with the same issues as you do for a long time in my life.

The purpose of your life is that you would find God in your life and you would grow stronger than the suffering your illness can bring to bear.

i know that sounds easy but it is not. i struggled rock bottom for years, even blaming God for all my troubles and thinking He didn't care but in the end i realised i was listening to the lies of my depression and not to the truths of the bible and that made all the difference.

So i began to take heed what Scripture promises to people and began to but my faith in God's love it was then that things began to change for the better. Once i let go of the lies of my depression and accepted the truths of the bible in their stead life began to become meaningful and bearable.

i haven't been able to do paid work for years, but i do do volunteers work in our Church community and find meaning and purpose in being to service of another.

i make it my goal to pray for those people who suffer as well and found that focussing on others suffering when suffering brings about compassion and good will instead of more misery.

Scripture teaches us that what we sow we shall harvest this is a real lesson to be learned by those who are mentally ill. i sown thoughts and feelings of sadness, regrets, hopelessness, despair, bitterness and fear for years and reaped lying misery in my heart and mind doing that. Yet sowing God's promises brings about good life even when illness continues.

So please don't despair your illness or let it make you feel useless in a world that is not spiritually focussed. Rather put your faith in God's love and operate out of that and you will see that Jesus makes something beautiful out of your life.

Be of good courage.

 

[truefiction1]

My boy has suffered in this way too, and we along with him. But he has gotten better over time, and you can too. Prayers.

 

[Tolworth John]

If your parents are happy for you to be at home and to pay your bills is there anything you could be doing while at home.
Could you do an online study course, work from home, take part in correspondence.
Some Christian study course need people to mark the course work, help the online students.

Is there the possibility of part time work either paid or for a charity?

You don't mention taking medication?
Have you been perscribed any meds and do you take them?

 

[Babe Ruth]

Newsgurl, Sorry to hear about your struggles (& existential angst)..
We'll be praying (& rooting) for you..

The harsh reality tho, is sometimes it takes many years, & many missteps, to find a sense of life purpose. But there is one for you, keep trying different job, education, & social options.. stay up ~

 

[joshua 1 9]

i feel at this point in my life I feel useless. I can’t keep a job no longer than 4 months I have no money to do anything with and my parents at the time r paying all my bills. I have bipolar and I feel like I’m getting out of control. I can’t go anywhere b/c I have no money nor do I have the gas to waste I just stay home and do nothing. So my big question is this. Why am I even here? I’m not doing anything with my life and my dad won’t let me get a job at this point so I feel useless. Nobody understands me my friends say they do but they actually don’t. Why am I like this. Why did God make someone like me who has so many emotional/depressive/bipolar problems. If I could change what happened to me when I was 7 I would but I can’t and now I get the after effects of having encephalitis which is personality problems and aggressive behavior. Is there anyone that can offer help? I see a therapist and a psychiatrist but I feel they just want my money they don’t care about getting me better.

God writes the book of our life before we are even born. It is His plan for us to be born again and a New Creation in Christ. We put off the old and put on the new. He does not give us a Spirit of Fear but of Power and love and a sound mind. We can have the Mind of Christ and the Divine thoughts of God.

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."