And that is fair to ask, and I've shared it here last year when it happened. But, to share it again, and then have it be mocked, ridiculed, picked apart...it doesn't interest me really. When I was an atheist, I never ridiculed people's beliefs, but did debate them, but in a way that didn't degrade them. I guess it's important to respect the person, even if you don't respect their beliefs. But, these types of conversations end up with non-believers painting believers into a corner, expecting them to give answers that they can't provide. Not that they won't provide, but that they can't provide. Faith is a very moving experience and a personal one for many people. It's not something that I can share, and you suddenly say...alas! I will believe!
I wish for you to believe someday, and maybe you will...and then, maybe you will see what I'm saying here. But, until then, we will keep talking past one another.