Who have you lost and how have you dealt with it?

[QuestForTruth]

I have lost a lot of people who were close to me over the years, both grandfathers, both grandmothers, 3 uncles, my baby brother, my father, my step father, my step grandmother, step grandfather and step uncle, and just a couple of weeks ago my mother.

My father was a very good friend to me and when he passed in 91 from cancer (he was 59) it hurt very deeply but I dealt with it pretty well. When my step father died in 2000 it brought back all the feelings from loosing my father and once agian was very difficult, but I dealt with it and moved on. There was a time when I didn't think much about it, maybe I tried to block it out but the last few years I find myself thinking about him a lot.

Now that my mother is gone (she was 60) I just feel completely empty. I know this one is going to take a while but life goes on and being the oldest in my family I must carry on and do my best to take care of the others.

Many times I have felt that God was with me nudging me in the right direction and now that my mother is gone it sometimes feels like she is there to nudging me to do the right thing. It is a difficult time but I know someday I will be re-united with my family. Until then I will cheerish the memories and try to make them proud.

 

[PegasusOnFire]

I lost my first born to m/c this past April.

 

[GreenEyedLady]

I want to say thank you to everyone who has opened up and shared thier testimonies. I started this post December 4th 2003 and it still is on going. I hope and pray that this thread can be used to encourage each other and comfort one another. Reading about how the Lord has worked in your life since your loved ones passed is such an encouragement. Keep posting!
GEL

 

[Alineko]

When I was younger I lost both Grandmas to cancer so I never really thought of grief in a horrible way because I didn't understand my emotions though I fell into a large depression when I was 10 over the loss of my closer grandma. This last year alone I lost an Uncle, a Great Uncle and a very close family friend. Now that I understand it I realized most of my life I've just been ignoring grief as it seemed easiest to do at the time. Which isn't wise because the stress of it will come out of the blue. Now I'm dealing with it one day at a time... Christmas will be very strange this year without these people but I find looking on the old times and not focusing on the now helps me cope... as much as one hates it time really does heal all things... it's just never knowing how long that will take. Besides the ones you loose would want you to live... after all what better example is death then to show how precious life is.